Invisible Girl (Chat MD Series #1) (TO BE PUBLISHED)

Day 79.1

(Jenessy's journal)

This week has been emotionally taxing for me. I've been happy. I've been sad. I've been scared.

But most of all, I've been loved.

I've been loved when I was happy. I've been loved when I was sad. I've been loved even when I was scared. I've been loved so much that I didn't know if there will be enough love left for tomorrow.

I've been thinking, how it's going to be in the future. Kapag wala na siya sa tabi ko. Kapag hindi na kami laging mag-uusap. Kapag hindi na siya nakabantay para lang magbigay ng assurance. I will be left on my own, with my demons, with the gossips, with people telling we are not going to work.

I wonder, will we still remain wonderful? Will we still remain in love?

But he will be left alone, too, right? With his own demons, with chances to forget. He will struggle, too, right?

It's not just me who will be trying.

It's making me scared because I don't feel my age. They say we are still young. And I'm sure, gaya ng sinabi ni Tatay kanina nung pinagsabihan niya si Ate Karen, they... a lot of people... think that this is just a thing of our youth.

I want to tell them a lot of things. I want to convince them otherwise.

But only time will prove them wrong.

I want to be right about this. I want us to work.

But only time will tell if this will be all worth it.

All I can do is try.