Venting (cause why not)

Is this all I'm really known for?

U know what, I'm done, I'm DONE

I'm TIRED of being so fucking smart that it's all I'm known for.

My classmates, parents, sibling, and even my TEACHERS know that I'm smart

Which is good, bc it has its own advantages: you get things easy, you understand things better, and you're able to help out anyone in need of help

But sometimes, ppl can take advantage of that, which is fucking annoying bc I can be doing a challenge, and u don't have any partner, yet other ppl start asking ME for ANSWERS. It's gotten bad to the point where I had to LIE just to shoo them away. It pisses me off

And my parents, don't EVEN get me started on them. They know that I'm smart, so they want me to have straight A's..STRAIGHT A'S

DO U KNOW HOW FUCKING HARD THAT IS TO ACHIEVE IN HIGH SCHOOL??

Like, sure I can score a few A's easily, BUT I CAN'T PROMISE U THAT I CAN KEEP IT THAT WAY

I haven't had straight a's since I graduated mid school (I'm guessing u can assume my age from that sentence)

Also my sister thinks im fucking google and asks me vocab questions, some of them that even I don't know

And when I DONT know the answer, she goes like: "But I thought u were smart"

...

Also the fact that I use to be a loner JUST bc I was so smart is also a bad thing. In my third year of elementary school, i started having a thing for math, and it became rlly easy for me. I kept getting better and better until 6th grade, when i noticed that it wasn't just math..it was science, english, and music. I was happy that I was ahead, since my parents always taught me to aim to be ahead and not on level with other people.

But then my classmates started getting jealous or some shit bc I kept winning those math and vocab games all the time. Around that time I also struggled to make friends (all of mine moved away or found someone else and forgot abt me) so I'd stayed alone for most of middle school (I actually did the calculations, and out of the 28.5 months of mid school in total, I spent over 78% of mid school alone)

If u can relate to me anyhow, PLEASE,PLEASE PLEASE I NEED TO KNOW!! I can't be the ONLY person who feels this way..right?

also this whole 'smart' thing has gotten into my head so i get jealous or think that i'm dumb everytime someone gets a higher score than me (even if i didn't put much effort and got a decent grade) and know that later on my parents would scold me abt this and cut off the internet so there isn't "any distractions"

But rlly, I'm tired of this shit, and if u can relate to me somehow or the academic pressure, I'm so sorry. I just don't know WHY this happens. It's not like I'm gonna need the knowledge abt the french revolution to become a writer or musician anyways (Idk if i should be a musician, writer, or both)

Have a great rest of ur day/night! ^^