𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘 𝐒𝐀𝐃 𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒🌟💊

𝐄𝐘𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐂𝐓

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕

i'm at a party with fez, i hate parties but he wouldn't let me stay home. we were sat on a couch, it was a quieter place, not a quiet place just not as many people. fezcos arm was wrapped around me and he had his hand on my chest. he was talking with lexie and rue, i wasn't paying attention tho i was just kind of in a daze. 

me and mila broke up a week ago, it's my fault i stressed her out and then shut her out because of my own problems. i shouldn't have drove her to brake up with me, it's just ruined me and i am on the edge of my life.

i really didn't want to be here, mainly because i was scared that mila would be here. it wouldn't surprise me if she was. i wasn't allowed to stay at home because fez was paranoid that i'd do something to myself. i don't blame him, he knows i'm so overwhelmed and he just thinks of me as a risk. "ashtray..." fez shook me and i looked up.

my eyes caught milas, she was looking at me from the other side of the room. "bruh your heart is beating so fast..." fez began rubbing my chest and looking at me with great concern. i just hummed unable to get out any words.

i could feel panic rise through me and i became short of breath. "ashtray calm the fuck down! i'm serious you will pass out." he said still holding his hand on my heart. "i— i'm trying." i said bouncing my leg. 

"hey—" mila came over speaking to everyone but me, "hey kid." fez said to her as rue and lexie greeted her too. my head fell onto his shoulder and i took a deep sigh. "fez... is he okay?" mila whispered genuinely full of concern, fez turned too me and rubbed my shoulder. 

"i'm fine." i said looking up as her as i adjusted myself. she looked back at me with wide eyes, we just kind of looked at each other for a few seconds. "can we go." i asked standing up, "yeah cmon." fez answered, he turned too say goodbye to everyone.

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀'𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕

— i had my eyes on ashtray as he left, i turned back to lexie and she straight away put her arms around me. i just started sobbing, "it's okay..." she desperately tried to console me. "that couldn't have gone worse..." i sobbed, "mi what happened?" maddie came over and rubbed my back.

"i saw ashtray... now i need to call him!" i grabbed my phone from the table. "no!" lexie grabbed my phone from my hand, "he is really really not in a good place! and neither are you so don't do this too him... you both don't need it." she looked at me with wide eyes, i just sighed and rubbed my eyes.

"cmon babe let's get you a drink." maddie pulled me away with her arm around me.

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕

it was pretty late and i was sat in my bed, i wasn't really doing anything i was just watching my phone and almost falling asleep. i began getting lots of messages from mila.

23:17 𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: asg

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: ashtray 

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: please i'm sprry 

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: i miss u

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: i am sooooi soddry

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: ilife you p

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: i love u

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘: i thought you blocked me

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: yes

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: i ubvlovked u

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘: why

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: because 

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘: that's not an answer                                                                                                             read 23:24

23:26 𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘: are you okay?

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: cab i come over 

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘: idk

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘: fez will kill me

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: oh it's fine tgWn

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘: so you will need to come through my window

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: i knew u lobe me

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘: yeah

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: 😁🫠☺️😊😇🙂

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘: dude what have you drank

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀🌻: you ginna gave to help me through rye windoe

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘: i know call me when you are here

i sighed and rubbed my eyes, now i had to stay awake. 

𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀'𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕

i stumbled out of the party, i was hoping no one would see me leaving. everything was spinning and i felt so close to being sick. i leaned against the wall and started too cry and call ashtray.

"what?" he answered the phone within seconds, "ashtray please come help me..." i heard him scoff down the phone. "oh- oh for god sake where are you mama?" he groaned, i heard him moving around.

"stay on the phone with me..." he said to me as i breathlessly shivered. "hurry... you have my location." i said, my body was stiffly rested against the wall.

i waited for what felt like hours, ashtray finally got to me and he straight away picked me up into his arms. "thank you so much ashhhhh..." i whined to him. "can you walk straight?" i nodded and held onto his arm as he rested me gently onto the floor.

we wondered back to his house and i was just talking and crying as i clung onto his arm, i was wobbling and constantly stumbling over. "cmon let's get you through my window..." he smiled pulling me through. 

i fell onto him pushing him onto his bed, "let's put you to bed." i smiled and fell asleep the second my head hit the pillow.