I Hate Blondes (Twilight Fanfiction)

Chapter 29 (Renesmee)

I am standing in the house in Washington. My mother is standing in front of me, with the rest of the family behind her. "You are a disgrace to this family! You deserve this." And with that, she brought Jake out in front of me. He looks so bruised and beaten. It isn't until I realize what she's about to do that I react. "Please no!" I scream. "Please! Don't hurt him! What did he do to you? Kill me, torture me, anything! Just please don't!" There are hot tears streaming down my face now. My mother ignores me though. She reaches in, and bites his neck. "Jake!" I scream. "No! Please no!" My mother just laughs. I can hear Jake screaming in pain. I know that there's nothing I can do for him now. "My darling Renesmee. After everything you've done, did you really think you would get a happily ever after? If you did, you were dead wrong." She laughs evilly. She's right though. I don't deserve a happily ever after. I don't deserve anyone. "Repeat after me." She says. "I deserve this." I feel like crying, because I know it's true. "I deserve this." I say. Right after the words come out of my mouth, she breaks my fingers, one by one, before lighting them on fire, one at a time. Being a half vampire, this is the worse things can get. After they burn, my mother blows out the fire. "Did you really think we would let you slip that easily?" Everybody laughs. She does the same thing to my other hand, making me scream. She laughs. She then ties me up, so I have no escape. She then continues to burn my body, one piece at a time. "This is what you deserve, you monster!" She spits in my face. I scream one last time "Just kill me already! Please! I'm begging you to kill me!"
"Nessie! Please wake up! I'm being shaken. I open my eyes to see everyone standing in my room. I can't look anyone in the face. " What are you guys in here for?" I mumble. "Renesmee, you were screaming for over ten minutes." Carlisle says. That shocks me. "I was?" I ask. "Yes." Carlisle says grimly. "We'll talk later. I'll have Esme bring you up some food." He says. Everyone gives me a worried look before scattering. Everyone leaves but Jake. "Nessie." He says. "Look at me. Please." I look at him only to see tears in his eyes. "Hearing you scream and beg for death Nessie. It was awful." I remember why I was begging in the first place. I look away. "Why is it hard for you to look at me Nessie?" He asks. I can't take it anymore and start try cry. Jake tries to pull me into his arms, but I won't let him. I see the hurt on his face. I kiss him gently. "I love you Jake. But I can't stand to look at anyone right now. I need to- I need to be a-alone. I'm sorry. By the way, can you tell Esme I'm not hungry?" I ask. He looks shocked and hurt. "Please Nessie. Don't shut me out. Let me in." He says. He's crying now. There's only one way to make sure I can't hurt anyone by being a monster. I have to make him angry. "Jake! What part of 'be alone' don't you understand? Or are you just plain stupid?" I yell. He looks terrible. I feel awful, but I don't deserve anybody. "Why do you insist on knowing everything? I can have secrets okay! I have plenty of them! Would you care to know them? Why won't you ever leave me alone? I'm allowed to have my own space!" I'm about to cry. I can feel it. "Nessie-" he starts. "Leave.me.alone.Jacob." I say through my teeth. He gets up, and walks out the door. I try to get to the door and lock it, but Alice beats me there. She sits on my bed. "What's wrong sweetie?" She asks. I fling myself into her arms and cry. "Al,I didn't mean to make him so angry and sad. I just couldn't look at him after the dream." I tell her. "Let's go for a drive Nessie. Get into the car. I'm off to tell Carlisle where we're going.
I walk downstairs and grab my coat. I won't put it on though. I deserve to freeze. As I walk out, I see Jake coming back from the woods, where he obviously fazed. He looks at me with sadness, then alarm. Without saying a word, he puts his face into a mask, grabs my coat a bit ruffly, and puts it on me. He turns and leaves without another word. I look at my wrist and see red marks in she shape of his thumb. If he knew, he would go ballistic.
I get in the car and wait for Alice. Eventually, she gets in. "Spill." She says. And I do, every single thing that's happened. She looks at me in shock before handing me the letter she found. "Open it." She says. So I do.
Renesmee, I thought you should know that I will never forgive you. You are no daughter of mine. Eventually, Jacob won't even love the monster you've become.
Then I realize what she means. "Alice!" I squeal. "Carlisle thinks you can detect other's thoughts, and your mind makes them your own. You have a really special gift." She says. I'm so happy. Until I remember Jake. "So the thoughts that made me think I needed to be away from everyone was really left over from my dream." I say. "Yeah. Carlisle thinks the thoughts will only come in your dreams though, so don't worry." She says. "Let's go back. I need to apologize." I say. "Okay." Alice replies before turning the car around.
I run to the house and see everyone but Jake. "I'm so sorry!" I say. Everyone accepts. Grandpa hugs me and tells me it's not my fault. "Where's Jake?" I ask. "Woods." Emmet answers. "I'll wait upstairs." I say. I sit and wait by my window. Around dinner, I see Jake's form coming towards the house. "Jake!" I say. Running towards him. He barely looks at me. "I-" I start, but Jake cuts me off, his jaw twitching. "I'm not in the mood for more verbal abuse. I'm not your emotional punching bag." He states, before walking into the house and going to to what I assume is his room. I walk into the house and grab my coat. "I'm going on a walk!" I yell. Loud enough so Jake can her. It's dusk now. Very dangerous. I hear his door open and shut, but I'm already walking away.
I walk for a while before sitting on a log and just crying. This is too much for me. I was going to apologize, but he wouldn't let me. I hear a branch break and climb a tree. I turn and see Jake looking at me. He glares at me. Actually glares!
"I'm only walking with you because it's my job." He states. His job? Does that mean he doesn't love me anymore? "Yes Jacob. It is your job. It was also your job to love me and let me explain, but apparently, you quit. How do I know you won't quit this time? Thank you Jacob, for leaving me with nobody. I'll be forever grateful!" I shout. No emotion crosses his face. "Your only job that has to do with me is to breed with me so you can have a new litter of puppies. Well guess what? I don't want that life anymore! Okay?" I yell again. This time, panic crosses his face. "Nessie come-" I am not your emotional punching bag." I say. And I run back home. I go into the kitchen. Esme walks in. "Hey." She says. "Hi. I say. Do we have any juice?" I ask. "Behind the eggs." She answers. Then she walks back out. Perfect. I grab a knife and put it in my pocket. I walk outside and tell everyone I'll be back. I pass Jake. I walk by him without acknowledgement. I make sure he goes inside before running far away. Once I'm far enough away, I sit on the ground and pull out the knife. I reluctantly cut my wrist. The pain is bad, but it punishes me for what I am. What I've become. I'll only do one for now, and say I fell. But then, it's ruined when a huge russet wolf runs up. He looks at me, and I can see pain in his wolf eyes. I forgot about Alice. He goes behind a tree and shifts and dresses. He walks back out. "What were you thinking Nessie!?" He yells. The first emotion I get from him is anger. My blood boils at this. I think he actually knows, because he looks at my wrist, then my face. "I am the biggest jerk out there Nessie. I should have listened. I should have told you I loved you. I'm sorry. I love you." He says. "I didn't mean it. I tried to explain but you wouldn't let me." I sob. "Nessie please stop!" He begs. I try to, but it's impossible. He wraps my arm up with some gauze he brought. "I love you Nessie." He says. "I love you too." I say. Then we kiss, to make up for words that can't be said.