Jade
"So have thesse panic attacks been happening a lot lately ?"-i ask James ,since we settled dowm on two wooden chairs on the room's balcony ,both of us with a hot chocolate in hand.
"I don't know ,i don't even remember when it started "-he shrugs
"I guess i've always excpierinced them ever since i was little"-he looks away ,taking a sip of his drink .
"That's terrible"-i sigh ,actually feeling my heart ache for him.
"Yeah well life's a bitch right?"-his lips twitch upwards,his eyes glassy.
.And the only thought running through my head is how many times he has put on this mask of hiding his true feelings with sarcasm and jokes.
"You know i would of never thought you of all people had problems "
"You kinda have that Chandler Bing thing going on"-i try to make him laugh,in which i succeeded .
He turns his head back laughing
"And you" - he points a finger at me ,head tilted slightly-"got that whole Kat Stratford thing going on"
"Oh you know me all too well"-i gasp ,putting my hand in my heart.
It's true that James Henderson has made my life a living hell ever since we were twelve but at the end of the day ,he was still sorta my friend.And it breaks my heart to know he's been going through something like this. Then the idea that he might've lived through this alone burns a bigger hole in my heart -and before I can think twice i ask -"Does anyone else know about this ?"
"Xander was with me once when I fucked up a game and totally freaked out on him -he pauses before adding -"and it happened again when we had a sleepover at his house but that's about it"
"Guys have sleepovers?"-i question ,like the idiot i am.This is a serious topic Jade.
"Yes they do ,we even gossip sometimes"-he adds to my insanety.
"No way!"-i giggle.
The idea that im actually keeping a real conversation with James Henderson -out of all people sends a shiver through me -and I lean forward,my arms crossed, ready to somehow mess it up - "Question "
"Answer " -he gives me a pointy look .I hold his gaze for another second."Why do you hate me?"-since we're already having a deep talk -i might as well as dig deep.
"I could never hate you Cheery"-he rubs his forehead -as if the idea of that actually frustrates him .
"You sure act like it "
"Let's just say you're the reason why some shit went down "-he explains ,a small sigh escaping him .
My heart drops to my ass .What could I have possibly fucked up ? This time .
"Im not following"-i blink ,geniunely confused.
"It doesn't matter now -and Jade I really am so fucking sorr-he shifts closer but Isabel's cheery voice burts through the glass doors and he pulls back -like im some sort of monster under his kid's bed .
Great .Now i have a new reason not to sleep.Thinking about why on earth would James hate my guts .I've always know it -but I've never actually thought of why .It had just kinda became a usual routine in my mind -there are times I forget he used to be my only friend for a while .
"Why are you guys out on the balcony in the middle of the night ?"-Isabel glances between us -a small yawn escaping her mouth .
"Just needed to have a talk"-i explain before she starts to think something else.
"A talk huh?"-she smirks at me.
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Setting Ourselves Up
Non-Fiction"Fuck you, Springs" - he spats. "In your dreams, Henderson" "How'd you know?" - he replies, with a smirk on his face. Jade Springs only has one goal in her life -make it to 20. She keeps to herself -quiet ,guarded and far more comfortable in boo...
