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Hold On

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𝐇𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐨𝐧, 𝐈 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤, 𝐈 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮

𝐋𝐞𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐝, 𝐈'𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭

𝐈 𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞

𝐇𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐨𝐧, 𝐈 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮

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Lando

She had ruined me.

The moment she walked into my life, something shifted, and nothing, not a single moment of normal, came after. 

She wasn't just the kind of woman you fell for, she was the kind you fell apart for.

Her laughter unraveled me. Her anger unmade me. And her touch remade me into something better than I ever thought I could be.

I used to think I knew what love felt like. Before her. A warmth, a flicker, never fire. But with Cassi, it wasn't a flame I'd felt. It was an inferno.

So when Ann kissed me, there was nothing. No flicker, no spark. Not a single goddamn thing. Because how could there be, when my soul already belonged to someone else?

She didn't deserve this. God, she didn't deserve me. I wasn't blind to the cracks in myself. I was a selfish man, reckless and brash, a sinner by every stretch of the word, but I loved her. Loved her more than anything in life, including life itself.

When I'd told Ann none of them deserved to breathe the same air as Cassi, I meant it. Because no one did.

Especially not me.

I stepped through the chaos of the crowd, every nerve in my body screaming to find her. A pulse of guilt echoed in my chest with every second that passed. I couldn't get the image of Ann out of my mind, her forwardness, her lips, her audacity, and I hated that it had happened.

I had to tell her. I had to make it right. Even if I didn't deserve her forgiveness.

But first, I had to find her.

The music pounded around me, a bassline that rattled in my ribs, but I heard none of it. My eyes scanned the party, catching flashes of faces that weren't hers. With every minute that stretched too long, a knot tightened in my stomach.

Where are you, Cassi?

It wasn't until I spotted Max near the bar that a flash of hope struck. He must have seen her, he always did. I pushed through the crowd toward him, the urgency thrumming beneath my skin.

Max turned as I approached, his grin faltering when he caught sight of my face. "Hey, what's with the face?"

"Have you seen her?" I asked, my voice low but sharp.

He frowned, his gaze shifting past me toward the dance floor. "Cassi? Yeah, I saw her. She was leaving."

Leaving?

Then it clicked.

She'd seen.

My heart dropped, dragging every ounce of blood in my body with it. She saw. She saw Ann kiss me.