Guarded Hearts ✓

Chapter 26

   "You want to...what?" Damien raised an eyebrow in question and confusion.

    It had been exactly one week since the last party and I had done everything I could to appear to be the perfect guest. I smiled when I should. I ate what I was given. I engaged in conversation with Damien when need be. I did nothing for him to suspect me of my link to Alex and my plans to leave. He gave me my space but slowly as the days passed his hugs began getting tighter, and his kisses more frequent and longer. I don't know how long I'd be able to use the same, "I need to use the toilet" excuse without him getting more suspicious. I hope he doesn't think I have a bowel problem or something. Actually I take the back, I hope he does. Maybe that'll help him keep his distance from me.

    The nights of course were spent with Alex. His kisses and touches were the only things keeping me stable and sane here. I didn't tell him about my plans to use Matthew's assistance to help me escape, just that I was working on a plan. He knew I was lying. I know he did.

   "I want to have another party." I falsely smiled and cleared my throat in nervousness

   "Of course. But may I ask why?"

   "I-I just feel that the last one didn't go exactly to planned."

   His eyes bored into mine and for a split I thought he would say 'no' and that he had found out my plan. He suddenly stood up and leaned towards me grabbing my cheek as he kissed me. I forced a smiled as he pulled away to look at me. Every kiss, every touch felt like a betrayal to Alex. It physically hurt my head and chest, but I had to grin and bear it.

   "I agree. This time it will be perfect." He looked back into my eyes. "The whole night...", his lips trailed down my neck and back up to my ear, "will be perfect."

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   "I'm just scared Alex."

  After replaying that happened to Alex, minus it being my idea to throw the party, we had mutually agreed that it had now gone too long not to consummate my 'relationship' with Damien.

  "Don't worry I'll think of something," he murmured whilst he stroked my hair.

  We both lay on a sunny dandelion-filled field, my head resting on his bare chest; the sun above warming and relaxing us.

  I raised my head from his chest to meet his eyes. Doesn't he realise what I'm dealing with? I've been kidnapped by the Devil himself for goodness sake and he acting so god damn nonchalant about it all.

  "Yes but for how long? How long am I going to be trapped there with him? How long is he willing to wait for me before he suddenly cracks and takes me by force?!" At the point heaving tears were violently falling. 

  "He won't. I won't let him." He was trying to remain calm, I could tell by the way his jaw had tensed up. But I wasn't convinced by his words.

   "You can't protect me while I'm there."

   "Yes," he said raising his voice before pausing and lowering it back again, "I can." His hands started lifting up my shirt and I laughed and wiped away the tears. My emotions around him are so damn bipolar. "What are you doing to me Vi. I just can never get enough of you." He pushed my body down and rolled over on top of me and starting planting kisses down my neck. Jeese, that feels good. "This body. God, your body."

   "Is it just my body you can't get enough of," I teased. He just released a muffled chuckled as he continued to kiss me. I arched my neck towards him, trying to ignore the thought lingering at the back of my mind.

   "Alex?"

   "Mmm"

   "What is this?"

   That got his attention. He pulled away and slowly rose his head and if he was being punished to look at me in the eyes.

   "What do you mean?" He now sat upright and moved off me, his eyes were darting around to avoid eye contact.

   I sat up and touched his cheek, smiling slightly. But it now felt forced. "You know what I mean."

   He chuckled but it wasn't as easy going as it usually was. "It's sexual attraction. Chemistry. It's-"

   "It's all part of the link isn't it..." I swallowed.

  He didn't say anything.

  "Oh my-"

  "Don't freak out now. So what if we get a little frisky when we see each other. It's no big deal."

  He placed a hand on my shoulder but I pushed it away. Oh no he didn't. "No big deal? This is a massive deal! None of this is real!"

  He raised an eyebrow up at me and smirked. "Are you telling me what we did a little while ago didn't feel real? Because from the way you were moaning and saying my name-"

   "Okay!" I blushed, cutting him off. "I just mean that when I first met you I thought you were a dick and now like magic it's changed."

   "A dick? Really? Such language!" He covered his mouth in mock shock and I rolled my eyes. 

   "Stop changing the subject."

   "I'm not." He chuckled, but there was something off about it. A slight bite to his lip, running his hand through his hair...was Alex nervous? Wow looks like the tables have turned. "I'm just pointing out that first impressions aren't always accurate."

   "There's something you're not telling me. So spill." I crossed my arms and raised an eyebrow. 

  "This attraction we have towards each other will go away." I exhaled when he said this, feeling like a huge weight had been lifted. "You're right, it's false. It's just designed so that the God and its Guardian will have some hot, steamy downright-" I cleared my throat for him to get to the point. "Basically we need to have sex so that we've fully connected to one another."

  "But...we have." I blushed, wrinkling my nose slightly. 

  "Oh I know we have. We could go for another round if you're down." He smirked. "I meant out of our dreams. We've connected here which is fine, because it means that you can still hold on to me and Damien hasn't got his grips in you yet. But it also means that our bodies will always crave...sexual contact," cue his wink and smirk, "from each other until we finally get all rough and kinky out of our dream state."

   "And then what?"

   "Huh?" He creased his brows together in confusion.

   "And then what will happen? Will our attraction go away? Will I be able to have a normal life or will I still be 'gone' from reality? Will anyone even remember me or would I just remain non-existent? What would be expected from me when I get back? Like I'm a Goddess right? So what happens when I get back? And what about you? What exactly is a Guardian? And us? What are we exactly...?" I took a deep intake of air to control my breathing and look expectantly up at Alex.

   He rubbed the back of his neck. "I...Uh...Well-"

   I raised a palm to stop him and tried to force a smile on my face. "That's what I thought." That's what I was worried about. I had been so preoccupied with everything going on with Damien that I didn't even think about what would happen if I was to go back. And the reality was...going back is much more scarier than everything I've had to deal with up until this point. And I wasn't sure of what I wanted anymore. 

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