A list of embarrassingly embarrassing things I wish would happen/really miss and would love to re-live
1. Have somebody have a crush on me
2. Have someone follow me and text me to catch up and see how I'm doing even after a few hours of not seeing each other
3. That one hangout with Lukas and Zach to the mall
4. Holding Zach's arm
5. Those random ass hangouts with all of us every month
6. Telling my mom "I'm going out with my bodyguards" (Zach, Lukas and Dean)
7. Zach's smile
8. Having plans each weekend
9. The feeling of being in love
10. Sitting next to Zach and Lukas when we went to the movies
I enjoyed every part of it. I just miss it. It feels like life is empty without them.
PS.
Is it wrong to admit that I am still in love with a married man? It's the main reason I don't text him and have mix emotions. If I go back to him, I fear I'll fall deeper in love than before. Before it wasn't a big deal. But now, everything is complicated. I cannot break up a marriage. It wouldn't even feel right if he divorces her and goes out with me. It would feel odd and filthy. I would never feel comfortable in my own skin.
If I could go back in time, I would probably go back to the time we went to the mall. No stress. No girlfriends/boyfriends. 100% trust and fun times.
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