Gwen's Life Journal

Mid-2025 Life Updates!

Hi!!!

So, let's talk updates. Last time I came here, I was super angry at both Zach and Lukas. Mostly because something eerily close to what had happened with Zach happened with Lukas, and it was extremely frustrating. Because that's where I left things, I'll start the update there.

1. Zach- haven't heard anything of him since he texted back in December (refer to chapter "Little Venting Moment"). I will say that, reading that chapter back, there are a few things about myself I am super grateful to have improved. For once, I no longer feel I need to have a person with me to confront Zach if he ever reappears (and yes... I do still have that lingering feeling that he'll come around the corner anytime now). #2, I feel better about the importer syndrome thing, and I'll talk a bit more about how I accidentally fixed that thing.

Also! I almost forgot. A few weeks ago, I was hanging out with Dean and Lola, and Dean mentioned that he had seen Zach at a donut shop near our houses. For reference, Dean, Lola, and I live very close to one another, and Zach lives about 20 minutes away from us. Dean said he went there with his uncle, and after ordering and waiting by the side for their order, he saw him enter and go to the register to order himself. When Dean noticed it was him (Zach), he looked for an excuse to wait in the car. Dean said he wasn't in the mood to talk to him, and since he didn't notice him, he escaped freely.

It has always intrigued me to know the exact reason Dean doesn't like Zach, because when it comes to Lola, he did a few of his dramatic mini-scenes at two of her events, so I understand her perspective. And from my perspective... There are plenty of reasons. But I don't think anything in particular happened between him and Dean. I think he's probably more annoyed with him because of the Lola events and the ignoring of the friend group, rather than a very personal reason.

Anyways, when he said this, I won't lie, I got a bit nervous, because my saving grace was the distance between our houses. I assumed that maybe when he got married, he stayed closer to where his family lives or closer to his workplace, which is another 20 minutes from my house in the opposite direction. But the donut shop we are referring to is 3 minutes away from my house, so... it did freak me out to know that he still hangs out around the area. However, as I mentioned before, with time, I have gotten more comfortable with the idea that if we end up meeting, I can deal with it by myself in the moment, so I feel better now. But there were a few moments of internal panic as I realized how close by he hangs out.