WHY THIS DISTANCE

38| Aadriti

A/N: A much needed romantic chapter after the last sad one hope you like this

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Chapter 39, 40 and 41 Are available on stck.

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I distract myself by arranging and rearranging the stuff on the dressing table while Agastya is getting ready.

My mind is still repeating Agastya's words over and over again.

She drugged him, tried to force herself on him, and made him helpless.

What's the difference between me and her?

I did the same thing!

I manipulated Agastya to marry me, told him lies about my family and tried to force him to accept my love.

I am not different from her.

Just thinking about the stuff I made him go through again just because I don't understand the word no is making me restless.

Why did he have to go through all that?

He doesn't deserve it! Nobody does!

And yet I did all that and made him suffer. Why would he accept me? Why would anyone ever accept a person who did nothing but forced their choices on others.

A tear slips from my eyes dropping on the table and I am grabbed by my shoulder as Agastya turns me around.

He looks worried as he stares at my face and grabs both my shoulders, steadying me in front of him as he stares in my eyes.

"Are you crying because of me?" he asks softly, worried that I might be crying because of what he told me a few minutes ago before we came back to our room.

I shake my head with teary eyes and lower my gaze to the floor not being able to look at him after all the things I have done to him.

"Aadriti, I am sorry please don't cry because of me, I am okay" he says gently trying to make me look up.

"I can't- You- you don't deserve this" I try to control my voice from shaking but it doesn't help as I hiccup.

"It's not your fault it's all past. I forgot it, there is no need to cry" Grabbing my face in his hands he brushes the tears away while I stare at his face.

How did I not see him suffering all this time?

"I Can't stop thinking about it" I press both my hands on my face struggling to control the tears.

"It's fine" Agastya pulls me in a hug pressing my face on his chest while he pats my back in a soothing manner.

He makes me sit on bed while muttering soothing words in my ears "It's fine Aadriti don't blame yourself"

"No it's not" I mumble, moving away from him. "It is not! I did the same thing as her. I forced my love on you and I-" I can't even complete the sentence without getting angry at myself.

"She didn't love me, She never did. You don't drug and assault someone you love" Agastya's words grab my attention.

"You are not like her Aadriti, You are not. Don't compare yourself to her" He wipes my tears again surprisingly handling this situation very calmly.

"She has too much pride of being rich, she tried to buy me with her money and when I rejected her she got humiliated" I silently listened to him as he continued explaining to me.

"I didn't even see her when my dad told me I have got a proposal" I digested the new piece of information silently.

"I was just told she belongs from a rich family and I already knew how those with money are, they always think of themselves above everyone, always rude to others, always flaunting their money" For the first time I am seeing him speaking Ill about someone.