Paper Cuts- Jelsa AU

Chapter 32- Oblivion

(Oblivion by Indians)
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Elsie-

"Tell me about my mother." I said as Cordelia took a seat again. I needed to know more about the woman who gave birth to me, and who just so happened to be the former Supreme. Cordelia began telling me, beginning with the fact that my mother had wanted nothing to do with the coven after getting pregnant with me.

"Your mother was a very strong woman, Elsa. She was exactly what the coven needed. But her time as the reigning Supreme was coming to an end as I was coming into power. She knew it and she performed a sacred ritual to end her reign and give the next Supreme the power. In order to do that, she would have to take her own life.

"She was only a week pregnant with you and she made me promise to revive her once I got into power. I did, of course and she packed up and fled to Norway to marry your father. When you were born, your mother was worried that you had inherited her powers, seeing as she hoped it would skip you. The family power skips a generation and that is why Anna has powers as well."

I interrupted her as I heard that, "Wait. Anna has powers?" I asked. She looked at me with a confused look, "You didn't know?" She asked me. I shook my head no and she laughed a little. "Well that makes two of you. Your sister didn't know about your powers until she asked me the same questions you are." I looked at the ground and she chuckled.

"Now where was I? Oh, yes. She contacted me a short while after you were born, saying that you needed help in controlling the power. Little did we know that my contact with your mother would result in my power slowly draining the life out of her. I helped as much as I could before Josette started showing signs of dying. The aging, the cancer, the chemo. Everything she did, was because she wanted to live to be able to see you happy. To see you overcome the curse and find out what you are.

"Although she never got to see that happen, she always knew you would. She said you were a fighter, just like her. I like to think that it's true. You have so much of her inside you, so much strength and goodheartedness. Elsa you don't fully understand why your mother was hardly there in your life do you?" I shook my head no.

"I always thought she didn't want me. That she thought of me as a burden and that I took away her youth." I said quietly, feeling ashamed of thinking that now that I knew what she had done to keep me.

"No Elsa, she was hardly there in your life because she didn't want you or her to get attached. She was dying and she didn't want you to cry over her. Instead, she wanted you not to remember her at all. It was hard enough for her as it was to neglect you than to be the mother she had always wanted to be. How would you feel if you were dying and had a child? A child who didn't understand the world around it, who didn't understand the concept of life and death?" I thought about it and realized she was right. I didn't want my child to have to go through that. I didn't want my child to wonder about it's mother like I did. My eyes drifted to the floor and I heard Cordelia place something on the table in between us. I looked up to see her standing up and gathering her things.

"This should give you the answers to the rest of your questions. I have given you all the answers I have and now it's time for someone else to explain it. Goodbye my sweet, dear Elsa." Cordelia said and with that she vanished. I picked up the envelope on the table and took a deep breath before opening it. The papers were a little yellowed with age and I looked at the date it was written, 1998. Closing my eyes to try and push back tears, I took in another shaky breath and opened them again. I started reading the contents on the paper and saw a vaguely familiar handwriting from my childhood.

My dearest Elsa,

Many times have I wanted to hide you away from the harshness of the world but I realized that as you get older I won't be there to keep you from it. I might as well come out and say it, I'm dying. I don't know how much longer I have to live and I know that I haven't been the world's greatest mom to you. You have to understand that what I did was to prevent you from feeling abandoned because you weren't. Elsa I love you so much that I wish I didn't have the ancestry I do, which is now yours.