Yuanfen : Destined To Be Together

Chapter 33

Jimin

I looked at her for a brief moment, shifting my gaze from the road.

She's asleep.

Her face peaceful, forehead relaxed. Nowhere like the way she was, anxious, for the first half an hour since we left the temple.

I closed my eyes briefly.

My grip on the steering tightened as her sobs echoed in my mind.

I know why she cried. Damn well.

And I never felt any more helpless than tonight.
That night when I heard her crying from my balcony?

It was still better. Because I was not there with her.

But tonight...

I was with her, but could do nothing.

Even after knowing the reason, words failed to come out of my lips when I heard her sobbing.

I took a deep breath.

My gaze fixed on the road, but mind elsewhere.

It's...

I really never felt so useless.

But what can I say? How much do I know about it?

Nothing.

I only know that I get dreams about her, about us.

And they come out to be true.

It's not like I wasn't scared when I got to know about it.

But seeing her breaking down like that...it only broke me more from inside.

I'm scared too.

In that very moment, it felt as if all my hardships through my life were nothing.

Not when I saw no way of reaching my goals, achieving my dreams in front of me.

Not when I only saw myself drowning, in expectations, in responsibilities, in darkness...

Not when I saw all the members working heart and soul and never get treated right.

Not when we all were considering disbanding. Not when the whole world felt like a false trap, a myth itself.

Nothing made me feel this useless.

I could not stop her from crying.

That's what hurts the most now.

I turned the heater on, but kept the windows open, my mind unconsciously reminding me that she likes rain, and cool weather.

I know what she's thinking.

Probably that if she falls in love with me, I will leave her.

She thinks she will become like any other fan girls of mine, who love me too.