Fictional (making some slight changes)

After Ending: Chapter 4

After Ending: Chapter 4

Nang mahismas-hismasan ako ay punong-puno ng hinanakit ang dibdib ko.. Hindi ko parin maintindihan bakit nya pipiliing gawin ito. Ang selfish-selfish nya. They were characters in the book but they are real people with lives outside the book.. He's different from the guy I loved inside the book. He's not the guy I wanted. He's not the guy I've been with the entire time..

Si Mico, mabait—he would never think about doing this. Si Mico-si Mico.. ewan ko. Hindi ko na alam.. It's confusing. Parang hindi ko pa pala sya kilala. I stood up preparing to go. I avoided looking at him and walked pass him, " We will find them. I need to find them."

I can't look at him. There are two possibilities that would happen—it's either I will see his eyes full of tears and forgot what he wants to do or he might see the rage in my eyes and got even more hurt.. Neither of them I ever want to happen.

After I took a few steps akala ko makakaalis ako ng maayos pero hindi pala. He grabbed my elbow to stop me from walk away, " Let's talk, please.."

I knew this was going to happen—something in me clicked.. Something in my heart clicked, our heart connected again at dumoble ang sakit sa loob ko kasi nabuksan yung puso ko sa katotohanan na nasasaktan din sya.. Na umiiyak sya at takot mawala ulit ako.. It felt like the one in the book. Like the Feeling Indicator was in here again, but now it was not the Indicator but the bond we made when we swore in front of the lord.

Ang sakit lalo.. Nagsimula ulit tumulo ang mga luhang akala ko tapos na sa pagtulo. Hindi ko sya nilingon I didn't made any movement. Naramdaman kong gumalaw sya at muntikan nang matunaw ang yelong bumabalot sa puso ko sa ginawa nya.

He hugged me from behind and buried his wet face on the crook of my neck, " I'm sorry." Something collided inside my chest. Something linked, then it shattered. It brought pain—so much more pain.

It was our hearts. I knew it was breaking in that point. I knew right there we both broke each other's hearts to the point I don't even know who's hurting more.

But the bitterness in my heart overwhelming that the warmth of his hug and love did not thaw the ice covering my heart. I shrugged him off and continued walking.. I felt right there we are gonna lose something important. I felt it before I became numb with all the pain.

Dumeresto ako sa kwarto at narinig kong susundan pa sana ako ni Mico pero pinigilan sya ni tita at sinabing bigyan muna ako nang oras magisip.. Pag-upo ko sa kama ay hindi ko namalayang nakatulog na agad ako.. Puyat din kasi ako sa byahe.

I woke up feeling someone's gaze on me.. Inangat ko ng unti yung tulikap ng mata ko maaninag lang kung sino iyon.. At agad din akong nagsisi nang makita kung sino iyon.

Si Mico. He's looking at me while crying.. Kitang-kita ko ang pagtaas baba ng mga balikat nya at rinig ko ang mga mahihinang hikbi nyang akala nya sya lang ang nakakarinig.. I felt pity but it vanished right away. The ice was eating up my heart and my feelings for him..

Pumaling ako para tumalikod sakanya—siguro akala nya ay tulog parin ako kaya tumayo sya mula sa pagkakaluhod. He touch my hair and kissed it. A rush of feelings tugged my heart melting this ice around it.

May tumulong luha sa pisngi ko galing sa mga mata nya, " I'm sorry I just love you so much.." I heard him stop himself from sobbing, " I love you so much."

The moment he distance himself from me and walked away, a tear fell from my eye.

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Nagising ulit ako dahil sa gutom.. Bakit ba lagi nalang anong gutom? Kagalit ko si Mico tapos kakain-kainin ko yung nasa ref nila. Nakakababa tuloy ng pride kaso gutom talaga ako eh. Basta kakain ako..