Fictional (making some slight changes)

After Ending: Chapter 5

After Ending: Chapter 5

The ice was almost melted when the first wave of the coldest air froze it again... The air was called death... Now I know why I felt that way..

Because of his family's connections, we found where their house is.. And my heart was crushed to the point I can't feel anymore. I was too stunned to cry.. I was too overwhelmed by the fact that my brother is in this casket, dead in front of me...

Bata pa sya! He still have so much time to live, to dream.. He haven't lived his life. He haven't experienced everything in this world. He haven't done much.. Why does he have to die? Dahil ba to sakin? Dahil ba ito sa sacrifice na sinabi ni tita?

I was just looking at this boy—he looks calm and just sleeping.. But no. He's not just sleeping.. he's gone.. Parang may bumara sa lalamunan ko at nagsimulang umiinit ang mga sulok ng mata ko..

I haven't seen him grow.. I haven't talked to for long.. I haven't been with him. I miss him.. so much.

This is so unfair...

Tumulo ang luha ko at agad kong pinunasan iyon, this is his fault. Tinalikuran ko ang kabaong ni Yuri at lumabas ng bahay nila, " Yumi.."

Mabilis akong humarap ako dun sa taong yon at sinampal sya ng malakas. Sa sobrang lakas ay natigilan sya sa posisyon nya at hinawakan ang pisngi hindi makapaniwala sa ginawa ko.. Nilapitan ko sya, " This is your fault." I whispered to him with tears in my eyes,

" Yumi-" dumeresto ako sa kotse at umupo doon.. Hinayaan kong tumulo ang luha ko at hindi ko napansing nakapasok na pala sya at nagsimula nang magdrive si tita..

" You two need to rest.. we are going home."

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" Stop this. I don't want this.." Pagmamakaawa ko kay tita,

" Yumi—" anger burst out of its cage and when I heard his voice.. I snapped at him, " Shut up! This is your fault.." Hinarap ko sya kitang-kita ang galit sa mga mata ko, " This is your fault! Ang selfish-selfish mo! You are not the man I loved.. I never loved someone so brutal and heartless as you are!"

" Yumi..." I was blinded by my anger—I can't understand his expression.. All I know is he is crying.. but for the first time, I don't care. This is what anger made me, " You are nothing to me.."

Nanlaki ang mga mata nya for sure can't believe what I just said. I can't feel anything for him now, but anger. Tears stream down his face full of shock and confusion, " You.."

He sobbed, " Don't say that to me.." kumurap-kurap sya—maybe thinking this is some kind of a dream or a nightmare, " You don't say that to me.." he absent-mindedly reached out for me but I just slapped his hands away, " You don't mean that.."

Tiningnan ko lang sya—feeling nothing, " I mean exactly what I said."

Nilihis ko ang tingin ko sakanya at lumabas ng library.. Nang madaanan ko si tita malapit sa pinto ay tumigil ako at hinarap sya pero hindi makatingin, " I'm sorry for my foul attitude.."

With that I walked away...

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I took a deep breath and looked down at my reflection on the water in the fountain... My conscience is thawing the ice in my heart having its narrow way into me making me ask myself, was I too harsh?

My mind kept replying his face while crying, and its thawing my heart..

" That was harsh.." napatingala ako sa babaeng nakakrus ang mga braso at nakasimangot, " As his mother I wanna rip your skin out until it bleed and torture your soul.."

Napatungo ako, " Sorry.."

" I still understand though." Ngumiti sya at umupo sa tabi ko, " I understand you hated him for your brother's fate.. But please remember he's not your real brother while my son is your real husband.."

" He's still my brother, no matter what."

Tumango sya, " I understand." Tumayo sya at tiningnan ako, " So what do you want to do for now?"

Umiwas ako ng tingin—hindi rin alam kong ano ba talaga ang gusto.. I can't think of any as of right now. I can't—, " I see, you're still undecided.."

Tumango ako, " Opo."

" I have one in mind.."

" Ano po yun?" tumalikod sya sakin, " He will give you some time to think.. You can't decide properly when he's here so I will send him to other country to do fulfill his job for a while.. Is that okay with you?"

Tiningnan nya ako at ngumiti. Maybe I really need this—maybe we really need this. I looked up to her and smiled timidly, " Yes, please."