She Doesn't Care . (Being Edited)

Fresh meat . ; Chapter Six .

* Small , but important , note at the end .

I always thought that Freshman year was my downfall .

But now , looking back , I think that Freshman year might have saved me .

It taught me a lot of things .

The beginning of Freshman year I wasn’t too sure about . I didn’t know what it was going to be like , and I was desperately hoping it wasn’t going to be like everyone says it is .

Truth is , I never got beat up by a big-bad-ass senior .

I actually became close friends with a few of them .

I never got lost in the High School .

And no upper-classman ever told me to go the wrong way .

Nothing cliché like that happened actually happens .

Or maybe I just never put myself in that position .

Who knows ?

Either way , Freshman year was surprisingly good . I met a huge amount of new people , and a lot of them hadn’t heard shit about my past , or just didn’t care .

Life was good .



Sort of .

I still had home problems , I was battling a newly found eating disorder , and I was still fighting against myself .

Okay , so life actually sucked . But school was good .

No , not that either . School blowed , horribly .

Unlike my previous report cards that always held A’s and B’s , the ones I started to receive held B’s , C’s , D’s and some F’s . I was officially understanding what it was like to do bad , or fail .

I never did my homework . I was always too caught up on making my guy-at-the-time happy . Or I was too fucked up too do anything .

And during school I was either sleeping from excessive all night partying , or I was once again , too fucked up .

Or not there at all .

I hated almost all my teachers , and this one guy , my history teacher , I had the biggest problem with . He liked to make sexist jokes , make fun of my uncontrollable habits , or just be the biggest douche bag . Ever .

I still hate that guy . I think if I ever saw him again I’d shoot him in the face .

So yes , school wasn’t too good .

But the people were okay .

No , that’s another lie .

I had friends tell me at east three times a week , for the whole year , that someone I’ve never heard of said this or that about me .

There was only about eight hundred kids in the school when I was there , and about half of them had said something bad about me , too someone else .

It was pretty bad .

But I still couldn’t bring myself to do anything but laugh , shrug my shoulders , or announce that I was that of which they called me .

So not all the people were okay . But I liked quite a few of them , and there were a lot more guys to play with .

Was that slutty ? Never mind , I never really cared .

So , Freshman year was okay . I guess .

I think I only thought it went by so good , because the last two years were complete hell for me .

~

Heelllooo .

So , I broke my computer . Which really , really , really sucks! 

 I'm gonna have to wait to get it fixed or buy a new one .

That'll probably be in about two weeks .

So for now , I'll be typing and uploading on my ipod or phone . So there more than likely will be mistakes .

If anyone finds one , I'd really appreciate it if you told me so I can fix it .

Thank youuu .

Besides that ,

I'd also really appreciate it if I people would tell me how I'm doing so far .

Or anything that would make the story better , and or anything you would like to see .

But ,

You don't even need to fan , vote , tweet , or whatever .

I just want an opinion .

LotsOfLove 

x ; Jay .