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Another special chapter .
I’m doing this ‘cause I haven’t uploaded much , at all , and the last time I did it was REALLY short . So I apologize for that .
This is McKenz talking about her life now , so it has a few hints . (;
May not make much sense , but that’s how she is . That’s who she is .
I think I’m way to attached to this fictional character .
Read the bottom , it’s like three sentences long , It won’t kill you .
My life was just so fucked up .
I just didn’t want to deal with the pain .
So I did drugs .
More than I should have , and a lot worse than I should have ever touched .
My life ,
it was all . .
So pointless .
So useless .
Was there a point to living ? Was there anything worth living for ?
No , I didn’t think so .
I still don’t .
Maybe that’s why all this led to where I am now .
Maybe I deserve to be here .
Maybe I need to be here more than I think .
None of it makes sense .
None of it ever did .
I’ve gone crazy once or twice , and I’ve always been able to find my way back .
But right now , right here ?
I feel like I’m wandering through the pitch black , in a place I’ve never seen before .
Everything is unfamiliar .
I have no clue what to do , where I should go , nothing .
My minds blank .
It’s empty .
I’m empty .
I’m broken .
I’m useless .
I’m dead inside .
I wish I knew that I’d be in this position when I grew up .
I always said I had no regrets , and that was so true .
I was doing me , doing it that way I wanted to be .
But now , I realize the consequences .
The problems it caused .
The problems I caused.
I was so careless .
How could I be ?
How could I do this to myself ?
I hate it .
I hate it all .
I hate everyone in here .
Everyone around me .
Everyone in my head .
Everyone , including myself .
As you can see , McKenzie is more messed up than in her teenage years .
I want to give her a lot of ‘problems’ , for lack of better word .
If you have any recommendations for things she could do , could have done to her , or disabilities/mental disorders , etc .
I’ll take them all .
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She Doesn't Care . (Being Edited)
General FictionFollow the story of a girl named McKenzie during her high school experience, re-told years later, when she’s asked to explain her adolescence. McKenzie wasn’t such an ‘average’ teenager, even in her own generations’ eyes. She was the type of gi...
