Resisting Temptation

Chapter 18

That next morning I lay awake staring at my ceiling still trying to come up with a good plan. I barely slept last night, instead, different scenarios played out in my mind of how tomorrow would go. I thought of him, was it anyone I knew, had I seen him before, a complete stranger?

I rolled over and stared at the red numbers that gave a faint glow to my room. 6.07am. I'd be up in an hour and at school in two. None of my friends even knew what was going on with me, Seth knew part of it but not the full story. My friends hadn't even asked about it. I thought bitterly but stopped myself. Why should they have to worry about my problems anyway?

Look where it got my parents? It was better to keep them as far away as possible, I knew that. It still didn't make this easy though. I'm surprised Jake hasn't felt anything through the bond, he must be pretty occupied to not feel my anxiety, frustration and how terrified I was.

Why is this even happening to me? Thats what I want to find out and I guess I will in seven hours. And I still needed a plan. A plan to get out of school an hour early and to actually get to the diner. I could steal Seth's car, he won't he happy but it's my only option to get there quick.

All I ever wanted was to finish school, find my mate and settle down, have kids and grow old. Apparently that's too much to ask for.

"Autumn wake up, you have school in an hour." Maisie called out as she walked by.

"I'm up." I replied sitting up.

"Don't forget you have to pick Lizzy up after school." She called and I sighed, I still had to get someone to pick Lizzy up.

Time seemed to be going by too quickly as I sat in my second period of the day. It was now 11 and I only had an hour before I had to be on the road. My stomach was twisting and my palms were sweaty.

I had been avoiding everyone today, I couldn't risk them finding out what I was doing or delaying my plans. I was doing this to protect them. All of them.

"You look pretty distracted. Jake giving you a hard time? I suppose he's bored of you by now." Scarlett said looking at her nails. She was sat in the row infront of me and turned to give me a knowing smirk.

"What?" I asked looking away from the clock.

"Well, thats what he told me last night anyway." She shrugged obviously pleased with herself. I blinked while what she said to me sank in.

"What?" I repeated.

"Oh come on, Jake was never going to go for someone like you. You're not his type, you don't have Luna quality and lets face it, he hasn't even marked you yet. Mates have normally completed the bond by now. The bond probably isn't even that strong since you haven't even kissed yet." She laughed amused. "Thats probably why he's moving on. I have missed him." She sighed happily and looked back at me. "Oh, don't be sad, we'll find you someone else." She faked a smile at me and I frowned. Thats not true, he's been trying to get me for a while now. "The chase gets old, theres always someone willing to give him what he wants when you won't."

"No, he wouldn't." But even as I said I began to doubt it. Had he moved on? I have been pushing him away and maybe he doesn't want me anymore?

"I beg to differ. He was the one who came to me last night, begging for me to take him back." She smiled just as the bell rang. "Chao." She grinned and left the room.

I knew she wanted him back and would do anything to get him but part of me still couldn't help but believe her. It was true, I had basically pushed him into her arms.

You really don't know what you have until someone else takes it. No. I won't cry. I told myself and picked up my stuff when I realised everyone had left for break. More reason for me to leave.