Resisting Temptation

Chapter 5

I always believed that things happened for a reason. But lately I'm beginning to have doubts. Why am I doubting my beliefs you ask? Well, the answer to that question is easy.

First reason, I've never been a bad person. I followed the rules, I never went overboard, I never did anything extremely dangerous to put me or anyone else in danger. I was a normal teenager, well, a normal teenager in my world anyway. I went out with my friends, I had fun, I loved my family dearly, I even did my part for charity.

And then my parents died and the unanswered questions just keep filling my mind. They didn't deserve to die, they never did anything bad...as far as I'm concerned. So why did fate take them away from me? Was it my fault, did I do something wrong?

They were good people so why them when people have committed crimes worthy of such a punishment.

That was my first reason.

My second reason, is the situation I'm currently in the middle of. I dreamed of finding my mate, of having a relationship with half the love my parents shared but yet again, fate's throwing me into the darkness.

Not only was my mate the Alpha's son, so there for it would make me a future Luna, which I never saw happening in my lifetime at all, but he also admitted to me the night of his birthday how he didn't want a mate.

Ironic isn't it? That the one person he shares his true thoughts with about having a mate ends up being the one?

Well, at least it saves me from his rejection, right? If I hadn't known then I probably would have made a fool of myself and would have been publicly humiliated.

So this way, it saves me a lot more heart break. But it's still crushed my dreams of having that perfect life.

So fate has taken away my parents and has decided to give me a mate who doesn't want a mate.

Does the universe hate me that much?

"Autumn," Amy's voice brought me out of the staring contest Jake and I were still having.

"Yeah. yeah?" I asked shaking my head and turning to her.

"You ok? You kind of spaced out there for a minute." She said looking at me strangely.

"Sorry, yeah I'm fine. So, food?" I asked faking my excitement. Thankfully Emma only had food on her mind and asked us all to hurry up so we could get to the canteen. I picked my bag up from the floor and risked looking back at Jake who was still staring at me.

He showed no emotion on his face and I hoped I didn't give away my feelings in my expression either, I've been told that I'm an open book and right now, I wish I wasn't. I gave him a small tight smile, letting him know that I know and that I knew exactly what he thought of it.

He opened his mouth and looked like he was about to say something but Scarlett ran past us as quick as she could in those killer high heels straight to Jake. I'd be lying if I said it didn't hurt when she locked him in her embrace and started kissing him.

What was even more painful was when he started to kiss her back while all their friends started cheering them on.

"Ugh, talk about public display of affection." Tiffany said turning her nose up at the scene.

"Come on." Emma whined and dragged us away from the hall and into the canteen.

I didn't really pay attention to the new conversation they were having. I just said my part when I needed to and tried to keep my mind from wondering back to Jake.

He doesn't want us. Lets just move on and be happy and maybe...just maybe we can find someone just as good for us. I said to comfort both my wolf and myself. I knew that finding someone else was a long shot, sometimes a wolf can lose their mate before even meeting them. Very rare that it happens though.