Moments like these (a Luke Hemmings fanfic)

How would you know Hemmings?.... Your not me.

We sat there for a while.

Luke's strong muscular arms wrapped around me.

Me holding onto him so tight almost as if I was scared to face the world.

I was actually.

I just wanted to stay in his arms for as long as I can.

I was still crying a bit.

I managed to contain my tears after about a couple minutes.

"Hey Angel can you look at me please?" Luke asked after the room being pin dropped silent for a bit.

I actually didn't want to.

I probably looked like a wreck.

I didn't want him to see me like this, but I guess I have no choice.

I fixed my face with my hands a little then decided to look him in the eyes.

His eyes were blood shot red and puffy?

"Luke were you crying too..?" I chuckled.

"No" he blurts out in a squeaky voice.

**cough cough**

"No" he tried again trying to sound more manly.

I chuckled again this time more louder.

"See there's the Angel I know!" He says while rubbing my back and smiling.

I stayed silent as I looked down at my hands.

"Did you want to talk about it? You know you can trust me." He says softly.

He picks up my hand and holds it in his, he interlocks our fingers.

His hands are so soft.

I stared at our interlocked fingers for a bit.

Whenever he holds my hands I always get this warm feeling that shoots up my body.

I look up at this blonde, tall, blue eye'd boy that I've come to like so extremely much. It's literally only been three days! How can I fall so hard for this guy who I've only known for three days! 

I look up at him to find him looking intently at me.

He tucks a strand of fallen hair behind my ear.

"Well... Umm after the whole Wesley thing... I found ways of umm... Coping with it."

Shit don't tell him he'll think your weak Angel!

"Ok well what I meant to say is that I... Got over him sooner or later. But every time I talked about him or someone asks me about like if I've ever been in a relationship before.... Or if I'm single or anything to do with my love life it just all..... All floods back in. I cannot tell you Luke how..... Frustrated and...... How weak...."

My voice started to crack and I can feel the tears trying to escape the brim of my eyes again.

I put my head up trying not to let them out.

Luke takes my cheek in his hand and forces my head back down.

"No Angel let it out please... It's the only way you can get over it baby girl" he says softly.

He puts his hand down from my cheek but holds my hand tighter.

I put my head back down and try to find the words to continue.

"I just feel so weak... And vulnerable and.... So god damn stupid for thinking about him all the time. I told myself I was over him...."

The tears started escaping my eyes again but this time I was showing no emotion and let out no whimper or sound. I just stared at the piano with a blank face.