That Poor Girl [On-Going]

Poor Girl : 28

I felt something strange this past few days. I know, I feel like I already felt like this before, but i'm not sure.

I need to figure this out! But  before that, Nandito ako sa stock room, haha.

Well, ayoko nang pumunta sa cafeteria. Hindi ko din alam kung bakit ayaw ko.

Sa Stock Room nalang ako. May Aircon din, naka on. As I know, mayaman talaga ang School na ito.

Can I ditch? Hahaha. I'm pretty tired and weak for now.

I found a guitar in the side part of the stock room, and I got a good idea.

I started strumming the guitar and i sung the 12:51 by krissy and ericka.

~Scrolling through my cellphone for the 20th time today
Reading that text you sent me again
Though I memorized it anyway

It was in afternoon in December
When it reminded you of the day
When we bumped into each other
But you didn't say hi cause I looked away

And maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life
And maybe I haven't moved on since that night

Cause it's 12:51 and I thought my feelings were gone
But I'm lying on my bed, thinking of you again
And the moon shines so bright, but I gotta dry these tears tonight
Cause you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on any longer

Oh oh oh oh...

Then I saw you with her
Didn't think you'd find another
And my world just seemed to crash
Shouldn't have thought that this would last

And maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life
And maybe I haven't moved on since that night

Cause it's 12:51 and I thought my feelings were gone
But I'm lying on my bed, thinking of you again
And the moon shines so bright, but I gotta dry these tears tonight
Cause you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on any longer

As the sky outside gets brighter
And my eyes begin to tire
I'm slowly drowning
In memories of him

And I know it shouldn't matter
As my heart begins to shatter
I'm left to wonder
Just how it should have been... yeah...

12:51 and I thought my feelings were gone
But I'm lying on my bed, I'm not thinking of you again
And the moon shines so bright, but I gotta dry these tears tonight
Cause you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on

Cause I'll prove you wrong that I can move on through this song
So much stronger~

How I love this song! I think this is a good thing! I think, this will be my talent, in the talent portion.

Phew! I need to drink water, i'm very thirsty. And in to bad luck, i forgot where did I left my water bottle!

"Geez, where did I left that?" I asked in myself. I go to many places and I think I could not find it anymore.

And in unexpected, someone opened the door.

Hell, it's Alexander. I need to act cool. Like there's nothing happen in the past nor yesterday.

Actually i'm not being hurt to what he said. I'm being hurt, because he ignores me. But now, I think it's not big deal anymore.

He gave me a water. I raised my eyebrow and say "what?"

"Drink this, I know you're thirsty, after you sung that wonderful song." WHAT?! He hear me sung?! Never in my mind.

I get his bottle because iI have no choice and drink his water cause i'm really really thirsty. I drink his water and technically, naubos ko 'yon. Hehe.

After that. I sat on the table and approach him.

"Sorry for being rude, last day and hello?" Haha. I'm not sure what i'm saying and doing. Should I act cool or just let the atmosphere awkward?

"You didn't change Xandra, and yeah, hi." he said.

"Duh? I even change. Hahaha. Welcome back? So how's your study in U.S?" oh nice, i've really acting like a cool one in front of him. Like there's nothing happened. What a good actress!

"Well, it's quite hard but it's fun and i'm staying here for good." I nod then he ask me too like what I ask to him.

"It's really boring, and also the events, like in this week the pageant." ugh. Really boring

Then we started bringing memories back, except the sad part. And it's really memorable so we could remember those things. In how we met, How we play, what are our favorite food, color and so many things. And then we started laughing like we're back as a child like there is no problem to be faced. How K  miss those scene.

The time is so fast. So fast that for now we are only reminding those memories.

And so many things had change. I'm not anymore part of his life. On how he lives in U.S our connection has been cut for long time. And now I see him again.

"So Alexander, I should go, and I hope we can still be friends." the last sentence I said to him before I leaved the stock room.