That Poor Girl [On-Going]

Poor Girl : 36

Umuwi ako sa bahay nila, kasi may nalimutan ako, isang napakahalagang bagay. At hindi ko 'yon pwedeng maiwala.

Nakita ko sila Mommy, Daddy,at Ate Althea, na nakaupo sa dining table. And they were talking as if there's one who was missing on the member of their family. What's the reason? Simply because they never considered me as their family.

They feel my presence, they stop talking, and reach their gaze to me. They look at me as if i'm a stranger to this house. The hell I care?! I just let my chin up and walk through the stairs. But they didn't continue with their oh-so-conversation-with-family. Dapat hinashtag pa nila sa twitter malay mo mag trend right? Or di kaya mag picture sila i mean mag take sila ng family picture nila then post it on instragam and write a caption "Bonding with Family." Then masaya yon. Ewan ko biglang nag-init yung katawan ko. Or should I medyo say naiinis na ako.

Bitchy? Hahaha. Defenitely YES. But being bitchy doesn't mean your a grown up bitch. Being a bitchy is just a kind of attitude. Even you're a angel, you feel bitchy sometimes. Because you hate the happening in your lives.

Then I found out the letters posted in the door of my room.

READED AS STORAGE ROOM.

Wow. But i'm not suprised about that. They'll definitely make my room as a storage room. I will find my thing as fast as I can cause i really need to thank them.

I found my scrapbook and diary with him. And a necklace gift by him.

I put it in my pouch then go downstairs and face their gazes who bothers me.

"Uhm, I'm here in front of you to say thank you. Cause you change my room of full of loneliness, sadness, darkness, depression or a gloomy sunday. You change my room a lot, you erase the time I cry hard, the time when i'm not in myself. The times you slap me. The times you trash a sharp words to me as if i'm a garbage? Hell yeah. You see me as a garbage right wasn't I? You didn't tend to know what you're going to say. The times you made me in anger. And the times you made me feel like I never had a family. Yeah I don't have a family. And again thank you, you change my room a lot as well as my life and attitude. Bye. And don't worry, you'll never see my face. Okay? So bye."

Then I left them. I don't feel anything. Siguro namamanhid na ako. Sa sobra ba naman na sakit ang iniwan nila sakin. Walang nag-mamahal sakin.

Napapagod na siguro ako masaktan kaya siguro wala akong maramdaman. Nagbabago ang takbo ng isip at puso ng tao. Kagaya nalang ako, nakaraang araw, umaasa parin ako, but then, now, I ust accept the truth that they'll never love me. And they never explain to me, why? Why they did this shit to me. Haha.

I'm just hoping that one day, I will meet him again. To ease the pain. Nasaan na nga kaya sya? I thought they were together ni alexander but then they not pala.

Sino sino na ba kaibigan ko?

Si Patricia, Nicole, Candice, Angelo, Joshriel, Kenneth? Haha, The Wolfs/Luxion also, and sina Margarette Lee and Violette Yu. They were cousins. They're such a goddess. And they're Chinese-Korean. Kami kami nila Candice ang magkakasama samin dati. And lagi ko silang nililibre. Kase kuripot sila muehehehe.

Napatingin ako sa papel na nahulog mula sa scrapbook hala may nakasulat sa baba? Na...

GFARPANS&GIGATTS 2211678417. I love you. Code yan ha?.

-JAYSIE MARNIC SANLACION JOSENIERO.

Aber sino ituu? Nako si ano talaga, mangunguha nalang ng papel, may sulat pa. Baliw talaga. Kapag nakita ko na ulit sya kakaltukan ko talaga siya Huhuhu.