HANGANG [BTS:RAP MONSTER]

10 / Can you keep a secret?

Kim Yejin

"And what happened after you went upstairs?" Ga Yoon asked me.

She came over to my house because we needed some best friend quality time again and that was a good opportunity to tell her about everything that has happened recently. Since her dad was home we saw rarely got to see each other.

"He told me that he loves me." I said.

"And what did you say?"

Flashback - the day before

"I love you, Yejin."

I immediately turned around and looked at his back with my eyes wide open. He turned around as well and just looked at me with a smile, I knew he meant it. I didn't know how to feel.

"You love me?"

"I do. I love you so much it hurts me to know that you just consider me a good friend. I want to be with you Yejin. I don't know if you could feel the same way.. bu-"

"You should leave Jake." I cut him off with those exact words. He got up from the floor and looked down at me before turning around to leave my room.

I felt like the most horrible person but I was just pressured by his words. So I went after him and grabbed him by his wrist. He stopped and turned around, his eyes were teary.

"I'm so sorry Jake. I'm sorry that you're in love with me because I'm not the one you deserve. I know that sounds like a bad romance movie but I just know that." I sighed.

"I don't care about all of that Yejin,  I love you and I won't stop loving you. If it's about that other guy then I will fight for you."

Jake took my face into both of his hands and my eyes started to tear up a bit. I felt really sorry for him because I clearly didn't feel the same way. I thought that I liked him back for a while but Namjoon coming into my life messed things up. I knew I couldn't set my heart on Jake. I took his hands away from my face, after that I pulled him into a hug and told him that I was sorry again and again. He left without saying anything else.

End of flashback

After explaining all of that to Ga Yoon she looked shocked.  She liked Jake and I knew she was cheering for us. At one point I did too. But things have changed now.

"I feel bad for him but if you don't love him back it's just not fair to tell him otherwise. I'm proud of you for being honest." She rubbed my back, I was crying a little. I felt so horrible.

"Yeah I know and that's why I won't be in a relationship with him. I just hope we can be friends again someday... I feel so terrible for hurting him."

"I think he will get over it, don't worry too much and give him space. Anyway, what's the other thing you wanted to tell me?"

The other thing. The other guy. Kim Namjoon. 

"I know Kim Namjoon."

"That's not funny Yejin, tell me now what's the actual thing you were going to tell me?" She was starting to laugh. I was being dead serious.

When I started to explain everything from playing danger out loud, to forgetting my sketchbook and meeting him at that coffee place again her expression changed and she stopped giggling. She slowly realized that I was being serious but still couldn't belive me all the way.

"Just don't tell anyone, okay?" I said.

"Don't worry, because I wont. No one would belive me that story, they would think I'm crazy."

She paused for a moment and then she looked something up on her phone. After that she had this big smile on her face.

"What is it now?" I was kind of angry at her for thinking I wasn't telling her the truth.

"We'll be going to a BTS fansign event. I already got the tickets so you can't say no. It'll be fun."

"Are you serious? That was expensive right? I don't want you to spend money for me."

Somehow I didn't want to go but on the other hand I really wanted to see him again even though I just saw him yesterday. I kinda liked him and he was fun to be around. But I knew I was not going to befriend a kpop idol, that wasn't realistic.

"Yes it was expensive so you have to go. It's in two weeks. That'll prove if you really do know him, I guess he would remember you then and say something about that."

"Yeah maybe... But you should know better than anyone else that I don't make up stories."

"I know but I'm still a little unsure you know. You would be like that as well if it was the other way around. You know I don't mean it in a bad way."

I just nodded my head and after that we didn't talk about it anymore. She will see that I was being honest. I was scared that he would think I was stalking him now. Just showing up there felt weird to me. I just hoped he would show Stacy that he did know me.