HANGANG [BTS:RAP MONSTER]

19 // Moving on

••••Yejin POV••••

It's been almost 4 weeks. Four weeks of not talking or texting. I'm thinking about forgetting him, letting him go. I don't need him, right? It's seems like he doesn't need me anyway. So why care any more? I'm not a girl that you can play easily, I'm a women and I know that I don't deserve that kind of treatment. He was the one who told me not to come anyway so I guess we're over. Wait. We were never really something that you could quit, we were nothing and now it's time to be strangers again.
I know I can't forget him easily. He's all over the news and he kissed me. He kissed me. Why did he kiss me when he isn't thinking of me anyway. But the thing that bothers me the most is that he said he liked me, because you can't forget someone you liked back.
I guess it's time to move on, to forget everything that's happened between us. Or everything that didn't happen. Like becoming strangers again.
So okay forgetting him can be easy, right? I know I'm lying to myself big time.
First I took off his poster and put it in a box, his autograph and photo cards followed. I even deleted the pictures I had of him from my phone and laptop. That'll do. Even the BTS merchandise went into the box, I can't see it if I want to get over him.
When I was finished I put the box under my bed. I just can't throw it away. But now it's time for the hardest thing to do. I need to delete his number. Should I?

----Namjoon POV----

The only thing I did for the last 4 weeks was waiting for her to text or call me. But I guess that'll never happen again. I gave up on waiting for it and decided to let her go.
If she wants it that way then I will just forget her. But how can I do that? She told me she liked me and I did too.. I kissed her. And when I kissed her I had no regrets because I wanted it.
And now I'm sitting her all depressed because of missing her. I think I'm going to go crazy because I just miss her so much. Especially her smile, it was so contagious and beautiful. How do I forget her?
There's nothing to put away because the only things I have of her is one photo and her number.. but I just can't delete them.
I was lying on my bed, looking at the walls. Somehow im hurting. I never felt that way before, it wasn't hurting like my heart got broken but more like I was missing my heart.
Everytime I was with her I felt so complete and now that feeling is gone. The others noticed it too, even Suga said he was sorry that it didn't work out. I know they mean it but they don't know how bad I really feel. It's so cheesy to say stuff like that but it feels like the sun was taken away from my own little earth. Ugh, I never thought I would think like that. I never thought I would feel like that.
But now it's time to get over it, it isn't like we were something. And now we go back to being strangers like it was before. It can be easy right? I'm really bad at lying though. Now I just have to delete her number, but should I really do that?