In search of herself

Cracks

Her whole life, she somehow decided that if she could help someone and only then they will like her.

So she helped.

She gave.

She poured.

Every last bit she had, despite having no time for herself.

She poured from an empty cup, eventually chipping away pieces of herself to help others feel whole.

Not realizing the consequences that would come later.

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She found someone she loved dearly and he loved her just as much.

It felt good to feel love like that.

But no one will love her if she didn't learn to love herself, something she pushed aside and decided it was not as important as people make it out to be.

Being with him, it made her feel like the only girl in the world.

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She started facing things that made her feel like she was losing her mind, maybe she already did. But then again, the best people are mad.

But one day decided to put a pause on things.

Without the love of her life, she got the chance to finally see the room she was in. To see the cracks in the walls, so many and so wide.

She realized, the people around her deserved better.

She wanted to be that better.

But she'll never be better if she didn't learn to patch up these cracks.

To first sit in the silence of her mind and accept it.

To learn to be the best version of herself.

Maybe then she could give her all to him, instead of a broken chipped version, a whole version.

He did his part, literally everything he could, but now it's her turn.

These were cracks that needed to be fixed from the inside.

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I hope you guys liked this chapter, it's a little personal but I've decided to treat this as a journal of a sort, since I could never keep up with writing physically. Maybe this helps.