About Harry

Albus

James is a jerk. Honestly, I mean it. He is such a jerk. I'm sorry to say it because he is my brother and he has always been more than decent to me and in many aspects is the better person, but he is behaving unreasonably; he is making grandma very worried and, really, all considering what she is going through he could be a bit more accommodating.

He hasn't come a single time to the cemetery. I must be honest, it's not fun, it's tormenting. Having both my mum and sister's death in front of me, seeing grandpa numbed by grief, grandma in a pathetic attempt in railing. It's not fun. But grandma cares for it, it does her well to have us there and if you are living in a situation where there is not light, if hopelessness, sorrow, and despair are assailing you on all sides, if you see those feelings racking everybody around you and you can do one thing to make them feel better, you do it. Doesn't matter what, doesn't matter the sacrifice, it's our duty. So, I go, and James should do the same.

He didn't come to visit dad either. I don't understand him. How can resentment be taken so far? I know their relationship has always been shacky, but he is our father! He is all what we have got left and we have been so close in losing him too!

I honestly don't understand him. Why such a fuss??? Always feeling neglected for mysterious reasons since it is not exactly as if dad has been such a bad dad. He used to make us play all the time, he would take us to visit muggle's places, he would joke with us... True, he has always been kind of silent and secretive and sometime right-out scary, but it doesn't take much to understand the reasons of it. Mum told us, Aunt Hermione too, even he at one point explained us the reasons of it, for god's sake! Why did I get it and he doesn't?

Personally, I think dad is great. One of the best people I ever known. When I was a lad, I adored him for the shine, the adventures, he is the one who defeated You-know-who!! How cool is that??? All the people I know have normal dads who do boring stuff, mine fought and defeated the darkest wizard of all time! Plus, he is an Auror. I always thought he was the coolest person in the whole world!

But then growing up I understood how much more there is behind it. And the reasons of my admiration developed and deepened.

It's all started when I was eleven and James was behaving like a jerk as usual and forced dad to tell us all what happened in his past.

Well, I couldn't fail to make comparison with my life up to that moment. My easy life with mum who would kiss me and cuddle me all the time, grandma e grandpa spoiling me covertly. All my uncles and aunts covering me with presents, not a problem in the world besides whether there would be any dessert after dinner.

And my dad at my age was living in a cupboard with a piece of You-know-who's soul inside him!!!

I reflected on his words many times afterward and I started to notice things I didn't before, and all his silences took totally another meaning.

There was a gloom hovering on him, a lot of anger repressed.

I don't think he had many happy moments in his life and still he is more than a decent person. Always ready to put himself aside for our benefit. And there wouldn't be any need of it at all because, already with all what he had done in his past, he rolled out a carpet of easiness in front of our feet, who have the privilege to be born his sons.

I know that every door is open for me, now in Hogwarts but also when I'll finish my studies. I could even drop school and I could anyway pursue any career I please and if I'd decide not to work at all, money will come in any case as easy as a galleon to a niffler. And even if it didn't, which I doubt (you just need to see all the advertisement's offers dad receives all the time and I know he receives them for us too because I saw some in his office once) we are anyway rich. We don't live as other rich families do but we are so, nevertheless. That's why I don't bother too much about grades, what's the point? I only study what's necessary not to fail (Rose wouldn't allow me to, anyway). I'm not show-off-James who need to shine in everything to be fulfilled.