The great hall was loud with students chatting about their summers and their excitement for the new school year. My plate was filled to the brim with food but I wasn't overly hungry. Lily was sitting by our other roommates and at the end of the table sat the boys. James was being dramatic again, his hands waving about as he spoke to Sirius... Who looked a little disinterested but seemed to be continuing the conversation. I wonder what they were talking about. While they talked Peter was stuffing his face with food and Remus was reading while he ate. He seemed to notice me staring and waved me over, I refused. Shook my head and went back to my meal.
He didn't seem satisfied with that answer. I watched as he excused himself and made his way over to my end of the table. "You know we don't bite" He joked as he sat down next to me. "Only once a month" I shot back, he ignored the comment. "Are you going to come back?... We miss you" Straight to the point isn't he? Remus never was one for dancing around the subject anyway. "Remus you know I can't..." Again, he wasn't satisfied. "It's been months Vixen, I'm not saying you have to get back together with Sirius. We just want you to be our friend again..." He looked down at the table. "Please Elsie, Vixen... It's not the same without you"
"Moony, I'll think about it... But for now I'm not comfortable around the others" I look over to the others. James still waving his arms about, Peter fully engaged into whatever story he was telling. Sirius however was now just playing with his food, completely ignoring the other two. "He has been dreadful you know, ever since that day"
"Most nights he stays up and just stares at the window, I know it isn't for me to say but I know he feels terrible for what happened. I know he is sorry, just give him a chance please" Maybe one day I could, but right now I can't. "I'll think about it alright? But no promises" He rolls his eyes. "Alri-" I cut him off with a hug, startling him. "I've missed you too Moony" His arms wrap around me, i could tell he was smiling. "Now go join the boys, I have a feeling they are staring" I was right, James had stopped his weird gestures, Peter was looking at us shocked and Sirius, Sirius looked at us with disappointment. When Remus returned to them, they were already in a deep discussion. Probably something about me.
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It's been a week into classes and I was already getting a little bored. I had received a couple letters from Danny, mostly about how work was going and how bad the war was getting. The death eater raids were getting out of control. I made my way up the owlery, I was about to send off another reply to him. His owl normally hangs around until I get the time to reply. Smart bird he is. I stroke his soft feathers as I hand him the letter. "Fancy seeing you up here Vixy" I turn to see James standing by his owl, only flying away with a letter moments later. "I guess so" We both went quiet, we stood there awkwardly. Like something was stopping us from being comfortable.
"I'm sorry!" He blurted out. "I'm sorry for what happened, I shouldn't of hexed Severus, I... I shouldn't have let Sirius call you what he did" He looked down to the ground."I... I've been getting better. I stopped with the trouble making and bullying, I stopped it all. I should've listened to you and Lily" He turned back to the stairs, seeming more upset then he had been from the start of this conversation. "James wait" He looked back, his eyes wide with confusion. "I... I forgive you" A smile spread on his face. "Really?"
"Yes really, now come here Prongs" I wrap my arms around him. It was only now I realised how much taller he had actually gotten. My head reached just under his shoulders. His hair had gotten less messy too and his uniform was a lot neater. He seemed more mature. "I've missed you"
"I've missed you too" He lets me go, a huge smile spread on his face. "So... I like the hair. Short and scruffy... And did you get taller?" I ran my fingers tht, just as James does with his own. "You aren't used to it are you?" With the most monotone face he says "No, I'm really not" I laughed. We ended up walking back to the castle together and to the library. "Do you think you'll come back anytime soon? A full moon is approaching soon and well... It's more difficult without you" Difficult? I'm sure three boys can handle it, they have before haven't they? "Difficult? The great James Potter admits that it's too difficult" He laughs and playfully shoves me. "Alright alright. It is" I shove him back. "Well I'll think about it"
