So High School!

Chapter fifty one

Aarushi

People change Aarushi, you are proof of that.

You don't get to touch me anymore.

His words ripped my heart out in pieces. I thought breakup was the hardest part, but his hate is worse.

Everytime he looks at me like he doesn't know me, like the memories we shared were nothing more than a phase. It physically hurts.

Oh Aadi, how do I tell you, that this heart of mine still beats for you. That you have always been the only guy in my mind.

Aarushi breathe. I remind myself. I am in the library, I cannot have a panic attack here.

"Please stop." I tell my mind over and over again. "Stop thinking about him."

"Aarushi." Not his sweetheart anymore?

I look up, eyes swollen with tears, hands trembling.

"Aadi..." I whispered his name like a prayer. The
only person who can calm me down.

You don't get to touch me anymore.

Right. He is not mine anymore. Not mine to claim, not mine to touch. No matter how much I needed him, I couldn't be selfish. Maybe, we were never meant to be together. He took a step towards me, standing infront of me.

He looked at me like he cared. I wanted to be weak for once. I wanted to crawl back into his arms and just be there. Tell him that I still love him.

You made your choice, now live with the distance.

"Leave me alone." I whispered my voice still trembling.

"Hey, calm down." He lifted my chin gently, making me look at him. "Look at me."

"Don't touch me, please." Because I am too weak to let you go. I cannot go through this again. "Please."

"Fine." He said stepping back. "Just breathe for me."

"Why do you still care? I broke your heart right? So leave me alone." My voice becomes a little harsher then I intended it to be. But I needed him to leave. 

"You broke my heart, yes. But that broken heart still longs for you. Just breathefor me." He whispered. He took another step back, turned and left.

I somehow managed to stop crying. Packed my stuff and left from there.

I ran away from my city to get rid of our memories, because every place there reminded me of him, his laugh, his deep brown eyes.

Coming here was the worst decision, because I see him everywhere. And knowing that he isn't mine to love anymore, makes it even harder.

I did not return to my hostel. I didn't have the courage to face people just yet.

I cannot breathe in this place.

Aadi's pov

I hated seeing her cry.

She was having a panic attack, again. And I couldn’t do anything. And it hurt me even more.

"Why are you so serious today?" Kabir asks sitting beside me.

"Nothing. I am sleeping."

"So soon?" He started pulling out the Maggie packets. Ha bas ab mai kha ke dukh manau na.

"Pick up your damn phone." I said throwing his phone in the air.

"Meri Jaan." He exclaimed dramatically clutching his phone to his chest. I rolled my eyes, already done with him. "Ha bol na Trisha. What?!"