I Only Care About You (Michael Carrick) -COMPLETED-

Chapter 49.

Michael’s P.O.V

What have I done? Why did I say that? I’m such an idiot! Fucking hell Michael you’re so stupid!

I pulled up outside my house my house and unloaded the cases back inside. Locking the door behind me, I trailed upstairs and without thinking walked into Jacey’s room. I came to my senses when I saw that the cot was empty. I screamed in anger and threw a punch at the wall. Immediately regretting it and shrinking to my knees on the floor.

You’re an idiot Michael. She did nothing. It was all your fault. You’ve fucked everything up and now she’s gone. The love of your life has gone and taken the two kids you love like your own with her. You’ve lost everything over one sentence. You’re a prick Michael Carrick. You deserve this.

‘’SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!’’ I screamed, aimed at the voice inside my head. It was right though. It was all my fault and I’ve lost the things I love most in my life. They’ve gone and after what I’ve done, I won’t get them back.

I stood up and walked into our-my room. I threw off my clothes and crawled into bed. I rolled onto Alice’s side and buried my face into her pillow. It smelt just like her. Perfect. She was perfect and nothing could ever change that.

I stayed awake for ages until I decided I couldn’t sleep. Grabbing my phone from the bedside table, I dialled Giggsy’s number.

‘’What do you want Michael I’m trying to sleep?’’ he sleepily mumbled

‘’Sorry Giggsy, I just really need your help, come round?’’

He sighed ‘’Fine, you better have got beer though’’.

After about 15 minutes of waiting, Ryan knocked at the door. I ran and opened it, letting him in.

‘’Alright Mike, tell us what’s up, where’s Alice and the kids?’’ he said as I tossed him a can of beer. I perched on the edge of the sofa.

‘’Well, on the way back from the holiday, we got into an argument and I said some things I shouldn’t have and now she hates me and has taken the kids with her and I don’t know what to do…’’ my voice broke at the end and stray tears trickled down my cheeks.

He sighed, ‘’Mike! You know how women are! They’re confusing! They go off into mood swings all the time! What did you even say to her?’’

I gulped. ‘’We were arguing over the children and I said something like Levi wasn’t even hers…’’ I threw my head into my hands and ran my fingers through my hair

‘’No offence mate, but I really don’t blame her for leaving after that’’

‘’I know! I just wish I’d never said it! I love her Giggsy! I love her more than anything and I’ve gone and screwed everything up!’’ I threw myself down onto the sofa

‘’Don’t be like that Mike, everyone knows how much you love each other, it’ll all turn out alright in the end, I promise’’ he smiled weakly at me

‘’Thanks Ryan’’

‘’Welcome Mike’’ I gave him a man hug and he then left. I grabbed my phone.

‘Alice, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean anything I said, I really didn’t, I love you’ I sent the text. I know it was late but she always keeps her phone on at night, she always replies too. This time she didn’t. I send 3 more texts with the same outcome. No reply.

Great job Michael. Great job.