I Only Care About You (Michael Carrick) -COMPLETED-

Chapter 51.

I quickly pulled away when I realised what was happening.

‘’Cristiano I-‘’ he silenced me by putting a finger to my lips

‘’Shh’’ he said, ‘’I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have kissed you’’ he said, standing up

‘’I kissed back, and I’m sorry for that’’ I followed him.

He stopped in his tracks and turned around to face me

‘’Looks like we’re both sorry, is this something we can overlook?’’

I nodded.

‘’Yeah, I think so’’

‘’Because there’s one thing I need to ask you’’ we sat back down on the sofa. He looked straight at me

‘’Which is?’’ I said, looking back at him

‘’Do you still love me?’’ he swallowed hard. I looked at him in astonishment.

What did that kiss mean? I kissed back. I wouldn’t kiss back to someone I didn’t have feelings for…would I? Do I have feelings for Cristiano though? What about Michael? Michael. Michael. Michael. Michael. He’s always there. Whatever I have to do, answer, say, there’s always him that’s there. Why? Do I love him still? No. After what he said? Fat chance! But what about all the other things he’s said. The times when he’s comforted me. When he’s calmed me down. When he took care of me when I was pregnant with Jacey. When I needed him, he was there. And then most of all, the times when he said he loved me. He told me every day. In person. On texts. On notes. On the phone. All these things are worth so much more than just one argument. I’m so confused.

‘’Alice?’’ he said, snapping me out of my thoughts

‘’Cris I…I don’t know. I’m just so confused right now…there’s not much sense going on up here’’ I pointed to my head, ‘’anything I say or do could be my confusion talking. I’m lost. I’m confused and I’m hurt’’ I said, tears falling freely down my cheeks

‘’Hey, I’m sorry, I was just wondering because of that kiss…’’ he trailed off and wiped the tears away from my face with his thumb

‘’It’s fine, I don’t think I’m in the right state of mind to talk about loving someone again yet…’’ I explained. He slowly nodded and smiled.

‘’I understand, I just want you to know, I’ve never stopped loving you. What I did with Irina was a mistake. I love you Alice’’ he whispered. I swallowed. ‘’Shall we take Jacey out to the park?’’ he said, after a long silence.

‘’That’d be great’’ I fake smiled. His disappeared up the stairs the get Jacey.

What a mess I’ve made of my life.

‘’Come on Jacey, walk to daddy!’’ Cristiano said. Jacey slowly let go of my hand and toddled over to Cris who swept him up into his arms, to which Jacey giggled.

‘’Yay! There’s a good boy! You want some ice-cream? Let’s get some ice-cream’’ Cris played with Jacey’s hands.

‘’You want anything Alice?’’ he turned back to me and smiled

‘’No thanks, I’m good’’ I shook my head, smiling and took a seat on a near-by bench.

They soon returned, Cris and Jacey. They took a seat next to me on the bench, Jacey in the middle of us both. Cristiano kept letting Jace have licks of the vanilla ice-cream. In the end, he got tired of moving his arm so Cris just gave the whole thing to Jacey, I laughed.

‘’Hey, don’t dribble all down your new shirt!’’ I said, using a napkin to wipe up the stray ice-cream/dribble from Jacey’s chin. I then tucked the napkin down the front of his shirt.

‘’Probably for the best’’ Cris and I shared a laugh while Jacey sat happily eating the ice-cream.

Jace thrust his ice-cream back at Cris, to which we laughed, and then pointed at the play equipment.

‘’You want to go play? Okay, come one then!’’ I stood up and took Jacey’s hand as we slowly walked over to the younger children’s play area.

He pointed to a swing and I lifted him up and put him in. Cristiano soon came over and joined us, wiping his hands on his shorts. I stood at the front of the swing and Cris stood at the back, we both pushed Jacey who was laughing like a mad man as he swung back and forth.