Don't Tell Nash

frustration

~Rachel's Pov~
I just sat there looking at him.  I knew what to say but it wouldn't come out,  why wouldn't it come out.  I finally said something but it wasn't what I meant to say "I dont know" i said i don't know why the heck would i say i don't know.  He was looking into my eyes with a look of sadness.  He obviously wanted me to say yes, but how... why.  The boy that never noticed me before out of nowhere decides he wants to date me.  Looking strait into his eyes I finally said what I wanted to say,  I wrapped my arms around his neck once more and said "I've never wanted anything more for a year now actually".  A smile spread across his face and he kissed me.

~Cameron's Pov~
I was crushed from what she said after she actually said something.  The girl I've been in love with for nearly my entire life has officially, basically rejected me.  My smile slowly started to fade as I stared into her eyes. Then she wrapped her hands around my neck and I had a little bit of hope left she started to say something and when she finished I didn't think or anything I just kissed her and she kissed back.  "awwwwww!" I herd and soon after I herd an "ewwwwww!" from matt.   He got up rolled his eyes and walked out.  Rachel hugged me and put her head on my shoulder "don't let him get to you it only makes him stronger." she whispered.  I hugged her back and said  "if it makes you happy." I felt her smile and I smiled also.

~Matthew's Pov~
I was happy when Rachel said she didn't know about dating Cameron but then I felt angry and sad when she decided to change her mind.  Everybody thought it was so cute except for me I thought it was horrible that was my moment so I got up and walked out.  When I got outside I closed my eyes and leaned up against the wall and shook my head.   I am still mad with myself about how I treated Rachel not only because I ruined my relationship with her but also because I ruined my relationship with all the guys even carter and him and Rachel have that love/hate relationship so you'd think that he would be on my side just to mess with her.

~Hayes' Pov~
I cant believe how fricking stupid Matt is.  When he got up I went after him.   When I got outside he was leaning up against the wall I asked him how fucking bitchy he could get because that was pretty bitchy he looked up at me and said "oh look little hayesey boy sticking up for his sister well guess what I dont give a shit what you or anybody says anymore about me and my relationship with Rachel."

"Dude are u drunk there is no relationship between you and Rachel get it through your fucking skull she hates you dude.  Do you not fricking understand the hell you put her through.  You tore her apart she loved you, you had your chance and you wrecked it.  Sorry dude you just need to understand that she loved you so much and you made her feel so empty inside, like nobody was there for her, like she couldn't trust anyone anymore.  You should just be happy that she is finally happy again!"

"you know what hayes just mind your own fucking business, What does it matter to you!"

I started raising my voice "What the hell do you mean what does it matter to me she's my fucking sister and I care about her, but i forgot, you wouldn't know how it feels to love anyone your to busy hurting them!"

"FUCK IT HAYES I DONT GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE I GET IT SHE HATES ME I KNOW,  I MESSED UP IN THE PAST AND AT THAT TIME I DIDNT LOVE HER BUT YOU DONT KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO FALL IN LOVE AFTER YOU MESS UP KNOWING YOUR NEVER GOING TO GET THE PERSON YOU LOVE SO MUCH BACK!  AND THEN WHEN YOU MESS UP YOU DONT ONLY LOOSE ONE PERSON BUT YOU LOOSE SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE YOU LOVE THE MOST THE FAMILY YOU HAD BY HEART!   I LOST ALL OF YOU WHEN I DID THAT TO HER AND YOU DONT THINK I FEEL HORRIBLE ABOUT THAT, I CANT TALK TO YOU GUYS ANYMORE ABOUT HOW I FEEL OR HOW IM HURTING YOU THINK I FEEL GOOD ABOUT THAT.   NO I DONT OKAY SO IM SORRY IF I MESSED UP AND IM SORRY IF YOU THINK I DONT CARE BECAUSE I DO!" he screamed at me with his eyes filled with tears.  I looked down at the ground and whispered "I'm sorry too... now just go."

I walked back inside and Rachel was crying into Cameron's shoulder.  I walked into my room and slammed the door shut listening to what Matt said really hurt me knowing that he feels that way.  I do miss him as a friend but what he did to my sister wasn't okay.

~Rachel's Pov~

I could hear Hayes talking to Matt and soon he started raising his voice i herd Matt clearly when he started screaming at Hayes my eyes filled with tears when I herd what he was saying.  I started to cry into Cameron's shoulder and hayes walked in.  I started to cry even harder when I saw his eyes watering i jumped when i herd him slam the door.  I got up and went to check on him and when I walked in I was shocked at what I saw.

It was Hayes sitting on the bed and I saw the tears dripping down his cheeks.  He was pulling his hair and i walked over to him and hugged him as tight as i could and kissed his cheek.

"its okay to cry, its okay to be upset okay hayes it is okay to feel sad you need to know that when you need me ill be there no matter what, if we are fighting, or if I am busy I will stay here right by your side and I will help you don't think i wont."

"he looked up and just hugged me."