Don't Tell Nash

letting go is harder than leaving

~Rachel's Pov~

I sat there laying in my bed playing "photograph" by Ed Sheeran over and over again. Tears were rolling down my cheeks and my heart felt like it had just been smashed into 8 hundred million pieces. My whole body was filled with sadness and I felt so alone. Over and over again I played our last sentences together in my head. All night I tried to get a hold off Cameron no answer. I finally cried myself to sleep after taking a warm shower. I just have no idea how I'm going to tell the boys.

'THE NEXT DAY'

I woke up at 4:00 in the morning and went through the fridge but I wasnt hungry. When I turned around I dropped my plate with 3 grapes on it. The whole thing shattered into 1 million pieces and I fell on the ground I put my head in my hands and started to cry as I herd the footsteps of everyone running down the stairs, and Hayes had a bat. When they saw me they all asked what happened and I told them EVERYTHING. That Cameron was gone, we had a fight, he took everything, and that it was all my fault!

The jacks eyes started to water and they kneedled down to try and comfort me. My mom was out of town on a business trip, and Aaron, Hayes, and Carter cried as they picked up the pieces of broken glass although I don't know why Aaron was crying now he already knew about it. Nash just put his fingers through his hair as he leaned on the counter I got up, ran over to him and immediately hugged his side putting both arms around him.

"It's not your fault." He whispered

My eyes filled with tears "I'm so tiered of being left." I said.

"Me too" he replied.

"Do you think he will be back?"

"I don't know but if he does come back it won't be anytime soon." He sighed and kissed the top of my head.

"I love you so much Nash." I said

"I love you too."

Everyone formed a group hug around me and Nash.

"I'm sorry." I said to everyone

"For what?" Aaron asked

"For making him leave"

"That wasn't your fault," He sighed "that was his choice."

I wish his choice didn't have to be so unbelievable." I cried

"Yeah well he is a jerk, and jerks stupid like that." Aaron smiled at me.

"You can say that again." I said and everybody laughed.

We released the hug and decided to go to the movies later so we all went back to sleep.

|8 hours later|

I was getting ready and got out my cloths. I decided to wear a red and black polkadotted shirt that was a little bigger on me, with white shorts and my black vans. I put on a snapback I found and thought it looked familiar and it struck me, it was Cameron's hat he wore when we went to the beach in Miami Florida witch is where we got our song "wildest dreams" by Taylor Swift. I quickly took it off and flung it back in my closet I took out another snapback and put it on and then put on my gold necklace my dad gave me when I was 5. We left soon after I was done getting ready.

~Cameron's Pov~

I can't believe I left I know she will never forgive me but now I can't go back either. I have made such a mess. I've been driving all night, and am so upset. I don't know what to do. I think I am going to go to a hotel and stay for a couple of days and go to a different one and just keep doing that. Right now I am in Las Vegas and just am full of emotions.Eventually I will go back I just don't know when.

I was sitting in the car and I turned on the radio... that new Megan Trainor song came on you know the one that goes like "so I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna loose you, I'm gonna hold you like I'm saying goodbye." ,and my eyes filled with tears I pulled into a gas station and just sat there and listened to the song until it finished. I punched the ceiling of the car and started crying even harder. I wanted to turn around do bad but I knew that if I turned around now she would hate me.

~Rachel's Pov~

I wish he would turn around and come back home. After the movie I layed down in my room and as soon as I closed my eyes Taylor walked in my room I opened one eye and he walked over to me.

"Sorry did I wake you?" He asked

"No I was just laying down."

"Oh, sorry."

"No your fine."

"No I mean I'm sorry."

"Yeah you just said that it's okay."

"I mean about Cameron I wasnt here last night or this morning so I just found out and I just wanted to say I was sorry."

"Oh thank you, are you okay?"

"Yeah I guess."

"Listen I know you were really close with Cameron so if anyone should be sorry it's me."

"It's not your fault Rachel."

"But it is Taylor, think why did he leave? Why was he mad? Why? Because I said I enjoyed a kiss with Aaron."

"You and Aaron kissed?"

"Yeah I thought you knew."

"No"

"Oh"

"Yeah"

"Okay"

"Alright"

"Well we did kiss so... yeah, and I enjoyed it and am thinking about going out with him after I get over Cameron."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

"Okay."

"Why?"

"Because."

"Because why?"

"Because."

"Yeah you said that."

"Why does it matter?"

"Why doesn't it?"

"Nothing I mean... well it doesn't."

"Whatever" I said rolling my eyes at him

"Yeah WHATEVER" He raised his voice

"GET OUT OF MY ROOM!" I yelled at him

"FINE." He yelled back

"FINE!!"

He walked out and slammed the door. I wonder what he was talking about, and why he got so angry about it. I decided to take a nap, and when I woke up I had 14 missed calls from the same number I called it back and some random person answered.

"Hello?"

"Hey you called a payphone."

"They still have those?"

"Yeah"

"Okay sorry bye"

"Bye"

That was weird. I went to Nash's room and he wasn't in there so I went downstairs all the boys were downstairs in the pool talking about something as if they were planing something, whatever.