Don't Tell Nash

Complications.

~two months later~
~Rachel's Pov~

It's been two months since my attempted suicide and let me just say... thank god it wasn't successful. Nash has been going to therapy but we haven't made up completely. Aaron and I fight often over dumb shit which he thinks is a big deal. He has also been keeping something from me but I'm not sure what it is, I hope it's nothing major but he just won't tell me. I got released from the hospital about two weeks ago. Magcon is going to start up soon but Nash decided he doesn't want to go this time. We all support him on his decision but it won't be the same without him.

~Aarons Pov~

I don't know how to tell Rachel. I don't want to hurt her. Its not really my decision though anymore. I love Rachel and I don't want to leave. I don't want to put her through that again. My mom is making me move back home with her. She doesn't want me to be around all the negativity. I tried telling her no and about how much I love it here with Rachel all she said was that she loves me and doesn't want me surrounded by people who don't. I know that everyone loves me though... Atleast I think so...

I need to tell Rachel. I just don't know when.

~a few hours later~
~Rachels Pov~

"Aaron it's not that big of a deal!" I yelled.

"It kind of is!" He yelled back.

"No it's really not! Why do you keep saying stuff like this matters?!" I yelled again.

"Because it matters Rachel! Smoking isn't good for you!" He yelled at me.

I rolled my eyes and started to walk away. He grabbed my arm.

"Don't walk away from me Rachel!" He gave me sad eyes and yelled at me.

"I can't do this right now Aaron." I said.

"You can't.... Or you just don't want to." He sighed at me and looked away.

I put my fingers on his chin and lifted his head softly. I looked into his eyes and I kissed him.

"I love you. If you really want me to talk about it I will." I sighed sitting down.

"Why do you do it?" He asked. He looked at me with his big sad brown eyes.

I looked at the ground.

"I don't know." I said not looking at him.

He put his head low enough so that I could see it and he gave me eye contact.

"I want to help you." He said.

"I know." I said.

"I know that it's hard but you have to work with me. You have to let me know what's wrong or I can't help you." He looked down at my hands and grabbed them. " I love you too." He said.

"It just makes me feel better... I guess. I know that the doctors said I was fine and I had nothing to worry about but, sometimes I'm sad and smoking just makes me less sad. I'm upset all the time and it suuuckkss. I want to be happy. I don't know why I can't." A tear fell onto my cheek and he wiped it off.

"Look at me." He said. I didn't look.

"Rachel look at me." He said again. I looked at him and he looked me in the eyes.

"I love you. Every single part of you. I will be your happy. I will do what you want me to do to make you happy. Even if that means I'm just going to be sitting here cuddling you for 1 hour or even 8. I love you, and I am here. I am here for you." He said looking at me.

I hugged him. "Thank you." I whispered in his ear. I kissed him and he kissed me back. He laid me down on the bed. And kissed me slowly.

"I love you." I said.

"I love you more." He said.

"Impossible" I said. "I love you most."

He laughed and kissed my neck which made me laugh. It tickled.

"You wanna cuddle?" He asked.

"I do." I responded.

~the next day~
~Aarons Pov~

It's time for me to tell Rachel I can't keep this to myself any longer.

"Rachel!" I yelled from upstairs.

"What?!" She yelled back.

"Can you come here babe I need to talk to you."

"Sure!" She yelled.

She got upstairs and had a smile on her face. This is hard. Harder than I thought it was going to be.

"Can you sit down?" I asked.

"Aaron your scaring me." She said.

"Please just sit down." I said.

"Okay." She said and sat down.

This was the moment everything was going to change.