Don't Tell Nash

Confused Kisses

~Camerons Pov~

"Come on Rachel I know your in there." She opened the door quickly and pulled me in. Locking it again. Her arms wrapped around my neck and she pulled me close.  It took me a few seconds to fully process what was happening when I wrapped my arms around her back. I could hear her crying.

"I don't know what to do." She said pulling away.

"I know." I said.

"Aaron hurt me and I'm over him but I don't want to hurt him either." She shook her head.

"You need to do what makes you happy. Not what makes him or Brennen or your family happy but what makes you happy. Your life is about you so you shouldn't waste it on doing what other people want you to do Rachel. Aaron is being a bitch about this and he needs to man up. He did this to himself. It's not your fault." I grabbed her hands and wrapped them around me. She squeezed me tight and put her head on my chest.

"Thank you." She said. "I kind of like Ethan too though that's the problem. I like my roommate and another guy. If I go out with Ethan things will be weird between Brennen and I. If I go out with Brennen things with be weird between Ethan and I." She sighed.

"Does Ethan like you though?" I asked confused.

"I don't know. I don't think so." She said.

"So then why would things be awkward??" I laughed.

"Well what if he does like me?" She asked.

"Who do you like better?"

"I don't know."

"Well you better figure that out first." I said. I got up and grabbed her hand. "Are you okay?" I asked.

"Yeah." She replied. She wiped her eyes dry and we walked outside of the bathroom. Everyone was staring at us.

~Rachels Pov~

Everybody was staring at me and Cam as we walked outside of the bathroom. They all probably think I'm like a mutant now. I shook my head. That's what I get I guess. Just my luck. I walked over to Nash.

"Can I talk to you for a second?" I asked, everyone staring at me.

"Yeah." He said.

"Can you just order me a cab or something?" I asked.

"What? Why?" He asked.

"Are you really asking me that right now Nash?" I asked.

"Well I'll go with you." Nash said.

"No stay here." I insisted.

"No I don't want you there alone with Aaron." He said.

"It's fine Nash!" I said.

"It's either I'm going with you or your not going at all." He widened his eyes. I rolled mine.

"Fuck this." I said and walked away. I called a cab and when it came I ran outside. He quickly drove away and I was soon at the hotel. I stayed in the room the whole time. It was calming.

~Brennens Pov~

"But for real. Where the hell is my baby sister!!?" Nash yelled from across the room. She disappeared about 45 minuets ago and we have all been looking for her.

"Maybe she went back to the hotel." I said.

"Yeah why doesn't someone go check there." Daniel said.

"I can do it." I volunteered. Nash shook his head yes and I ran out of the door. I called an uber and it came in about 5 minuets. I got to the hotel and went upstairs to Rachel and I's room. She was laying on her bed with some headphones in. I could see her wiping her eyes when they got wet. I went back out into the hall and called Nash.

"Hey did you find her??" He asked.

"Yeah. She's.. Asleep." I lied.

"Okay just head back over here." He said.

"You know I think I'm going to stay here with her." I said.

"Alright." He said.

I knocked on the door so she wouldn't get scared by me being in there.

~Rachels Pov~

Someone knocked on the door so I went to see who it was. It was Brennen. He was smiling outside the door. I unlocked the door and he came in.

"Hey. Sorry I left my key here." He said.

"It's okay come in." He walked in and took off his shoes.

"Are you okay?" He asked me.

"Yeah why aren't you with the other guys?" I asked confused.

"Because I wanted to check on you." He said. He sat on the bed next to me and put his hand on my leg moving his thumb up and down. I moved his hand by getting up. It felt so right yet so wrong. I had one of his sweatshirts on because I couldn't find one of mine and a pair of spandex. I walked over to the window and he just sat on the bed. I put my phone down on the dresser. My eyes started to fill up with tears. I tried to cry quietly. Wiping my tears I sniffled a little bit and Brennen got up and walked over to me.

"Hey it's okay." He said hugging me. I put my hand and head on his chest. He squeezed me tight and then released. "It's okay." He repeated. I nodded my head as his palms laid softly on my cheeks. His eyes connected with mine. He went in for a kiss but I pulled away from his grasp. I wanted to kiss him.. Really badly but my body said no for some reason. I walked back over to the bed.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"Yeah. I'm really sorry." I said.

"For what?" He asked.

"Not kissing you." I responded.

"That's okay." He laughed, "if your not ready, your not ready."

"It's not that I'm not ready it's just.. I don't even know. I'm nervous I guess you could say." I told him.

"Well that's okay too. Because I'm nervous as well." He laughed again.

"Oh please. You don't have any nerve in you." I laughed with him.

"Your beautiful." His smile melted me as he stared into my eyes. I got lost in them. "I'm sorry." He said as we lost eye contact.

"No thats.. Thank you." I smiled.

"Your welcome." He smiled back. He walked back over towards the bed and he sat in front of me. He smiled at me. I smiled at him.

"I lov.. I cut myself off. I'm sorry." I shook my head.

"No that's perfectly fine. Your amazing." His eyes met with mine.

~later that week~

My head was spinning, I was lost, inside of my own heart. I was told to choose and I know who I want but is this a decision I should be making while I'm high and drunk as fuck? I don't think so.