Don't Tell Nash

battle cry

~Rachel's Pov~

I woke up remembering I was at Mitchels and went downstairs in the kitchen.  When I got there he was sitting drinking an Arizona Tea and reading the book "The Boy In The Stripped Pajamas." And ill have you know that movie is one of my all time favorites.  I totally freaked out that he was reading it and he gave me a strange look.

"OH MY GOSH I LOVE THAT MOVIE!" I yelled.

"ME TOOOOO!" He yelled back.

"It is like my favorite movie!!"

"Yeah me too I honestly think I like the movie more than the book."

"Lol I always prefer the movie over the book." I laughed guilty.

"Ha me too." He laughed with me, and I smiled at him.  He broke the silence by asking me if I was hungry. I replied with a head nodd and he also nodded his head.

"Tell me if you do get hungry though I can make you something or we can go out to eat whatever you want."

"You can cook?"

"Yeah I always used to cook with my mom since I was 4," he smiled "me and my mom are pretty close, same with me and my dad.

"Oh cool" I said and looked down at my phone and went on Instagram.  He just looked back at his book and began reading.  After a little bit I could hear the clicks of his keyboard and him send a text.  I soon got a text from him.

✨mitchelll: r u ok?

Me: yeah why?

✨mitchelll: I heard you crying last night.

Me: sorry was I keeping you up?

✨mitchelll: no I just couldn't sleep.

Me: oh how come?

✨mitchelll:  because of your brothers face when we left.

Me:  Yeah we've been having some rough times lately.

I could feel my eyes filling with tears and I tried so hard to keep from crying when I felt a tear roll down my cheek.  I quickly whipped it and he saw me and looked up with a pouty face.

✨mitchelll: I'm sorry we don't have to talk about it.

Me: no it's nice to have someone to talk to.

✨mitchelll:  then let's talk.

I heard him set down his phone and I started to cry some more he got up and came over to comfort me.  I put my head on his chest and he hugged me.

"I'm sorry." He said.

"You know when u started talking about how you have an amazing family and how your so close to your mom and dad I got a little teary eyed because I have never been close to my mom I was at one point close to my dad but then he left me in the dirt to die."

"Oh my gosh what happened?!" He asked surprised to hear all of this.

"Well my dad left us when Hayes and I were around 8, and my mom never really is home she is always on business trips in fact she is on one right now," I said with another tear rolling down my cheek. "That is why me, Hayes, and Nash are so close.  My dad calls once in a while and always apologizes but he doesn't really care and I've gotten to the point where I am scared of answering the phone because everytime he calls I end up in tears."

"I'm so sorry." He replied with a tear rolling down his cheek and a look of depression on his face.

"It's not your fault but you see... Me leaving Nash yesterday most likely made him feel like he was being left again... but in reality I was the one being left.  He is supposed to protect me from bullying not make me suffer from it... I love him but he doesn't know it and he doesn't and never will love me as much as I love him." I cried into his shoulder.