Don't Tell Nash

Lost

"you're leaving?" I looked towards the door and my heart broke. It was Hayes.  He looked at me with sad eyes and a pale face. I didn't say anything I just looked at him.

"Are... You leaving?" He asked again I couldn't seem to say anything... I didn't know what to say.

"Rachel are you leaving!?" He yelled at me.

"Um... Yes... Uh... I am... Leaving... I'm leaving." I said slowly and separated.

".......wh...why?" He asked.

"Hayes listen-" he cut me off.

"no, why are you leaving Rachel!" His voice was raised.

"because I don't feel welcome here Hayes..."

"what the hell do you mean you don't feel welcome here!?"

"I mean exactly what I said."

"You mean your leaving because your selfish, because you don't care what anybody else here thinks or wants.  Oh and let me guess,  Aaron is going with you because apparently he is the only one that "loves" you right?"

"No... he is staying here." I said looking at Aaron.  He looked at me confused.

"What do you mean of coarse I'm coming with you."  Aaron said.

"No, your staying here where you belong." I said to him. He walked over to me and shook his head.

"But... I belong with... with you." He said his face close to mine.

"I'm not good for you Aaron... I... I'm uh full of myself like Nash said.  You need to have fun and you shouldn't have to be stuck with someone who is always upset... you need to be happy and you deserve to have someone who makes you happy..." I started to cry and my stomach ached...

"Bu... but you, you make me happy. I'm happy with you... I love you. Don't, don't do this please. Please don't leave please." His eyes started watering and a tear fell from his cheek.  He ran his fingers through my hair.

"I'm sorry." I cried. He put his hand on the side of my face and pushed my hair behind my ear.

"Don't leave." He whispered with tears on his cheeks.

"I'm so sorry."  I whispered and kissed him.  He kissed me back.  The kiss was released and we looked into each others teary eyes.

-the next day-

Lastnight was a struggle for me. I finished packing and called Mitchell.

*ring ring ring*

"Hello?" Mitchell said through the phone.

"Hey it's Rachel I have to ask you something."

"Okay what's up?"

"Well... I need a favor, a really big favor actually."

"Alright what is it? I'm not hiding a body am I?" We laughed.

"no I didn't kill anyone."

"okay good so what's up?"

"well I got into a huge like HUGE fight with everyone and I need to get away from this house until I'm ready to deal with this. Cameron came back and I don't feel comfortable when he comes over. I know this is a lot to ask but I was wondering if I could stay at your house?"

"oh my gosh yeah yes. When should I pick you up?"

"well I don't want them to know where I'm going so I'm going to have Sage drop me off."

"Okay bring as much as you need."

"thank you so much Mitchell."

"yeah no problem."

yesterday after what happened I called Sage. She came over for a sleepover to help me pack. Before I left I had to talk to Aaron and figure out what this means for us. I walked into Carter's room which was where he slept last night. He was awake laying down on his old bed staring at the ceiling.

"hey uh... Aaron?" He didn't answer. "Aaron can we please talk?" I asked.

"Sure." He said not looking at me.

"well I'm leaving..." I said.

"I know." He replied.

"Um well... I guess I'll uh just go then." I was a little choked up.

"Okay." He said.

"Bye." I said and walked out of the room. A tear fell off my cheek and I crossed my fingers he would ask me to wait. I stopped and turned around hoping he was looking at me but he wasn't he was still laying on the bed watching the ceiling. I turned back around and walked away.