Don't Tell Nash

Color Blind

~Nash's Pov~

I never wanted anyone to get hurt not Rachel not Cameron but not myself either. I told Rachel she couldn't come to magcon with us and I haven't talk to her ever since. She slapped me across the face, my own sister. Not everything is about her though so why does she think it is? Her entire life it's always been about her. She is an attention seeker. I haven't talk to her ever since our fight but I think I will today, she needs to know it's not about her all the time.

-later that day-

I decided to talk to Rachel today. I'm not sure what I'm going to say but I know we need to talk. I texted Aaron.

Nash: hey Aaron I know you're probably not going to read or respond to this but I need to talk to Rachel so can you please let me?

Aaron: she probably doesn't want to talk to you but sure just come upstairs.

Nash: okay thank you.

Aaron: yup.

I went upstairs and walked in the room Rachel and Aaron were sitting on the bed laughing. Rachel saw me and stop smiling. Aaron looked at her and walked out of the room.

"what do you want?" She said not looking at me.

"well first of all I want you to look at me without making me feel like a dip shit walking into here" I said, I went over and sat next to her on the bed. She scooted away from me and I rolled my eyes.

"you know how much I loved him" she said still not looking at me. A tear fell off of her cheek onto her pillow leaving a stain from her mascara. She quickly wiped it off.

"I know." I said.

"why? Why didn't you tell me?"

"because he wanted it to be a surprise."

"what about me Nash!? Did you ever think that maybe your little sister is more important than a friend?" She finally looked up at me.

"everything is about you isn't it!!" I raised my voice.

"What the hell are you talking about?" She had a confused look on her face.

"oh please, everything is always about you. When dad left you didn't come out of your room for two months except to get food and take a shower. Oh and when Hayes left the first time you didn't ask anyone anything unless you heard us talking to someone on the phone, and even then it was just you asking if it was Hayes. The last time he came back you wouldn't talk to him because he didn't tell you he was going to be gone for four years big woop!! And now this, Cameron comes back we don't tell you and the only person you're talking to is your stupid boyfriend! You are so dramatic about everything for no reason!!!" I yelled at her... I think I left her speechless because she just stared at me with her mouth open. Her eyes started to water and she blinked. A quick light tear fell on her dry pink cheek. She still had her mouth open not very wide but it was open.

"I... uh... I...". She stuttered and let out a breath. In this moment I knew I hurt her. I wasn't going to say I was sorry, although I was. She snapped out of her little trance. She shook her head and wiped her face.

"I... Think I should go... Leave... I can't... Stay." She said quietly. I was confused.

"what do you mean?"

"I mean I... Need to... Want to... I'm leaving..."

"Right and where would you go?"

"anywhere would be better than here," she paused "i'm alone here."

"Don't... Don't say that."

"then what should I say Nash?! You don't want me here Hayes, Cameron, the boys... Mom doesn't even want to be here half the time, more than half the time so why would I stay?"

"because I've been left too many times!! God Rachel stop thinking about yourself! I believe the real question here is what about me?" I was still yelling at her.

"stop yelling at me! I'm not a child and I'm not your daughter so stop treating me like I am! I'm tired of you thinking that you can just tell me what to do or when to do it!" She paused and I stared. "i'm leaving and I'll come back when I'm ready okay?"

"No not okay."

"Whatever Nash." She rolled her eyes.

"you can't leave you have nowhere to go!"

"I can... I am... And you can't do anything about it... Because you're not my father... I don't have one."

~Rachel's Pov~

I knew where I was going to go... I knew who I was going to be with... I knew I was hurting Nash... I knew this would worry him... He knew he was hurting me.

"you can't leave you have nowhere to go!" Nash said, his eyes watering.

"I can... I am... And you can't do anything about it... Because you're not my father... I don't have one." I finally held in my tears. Nash finally let his out. He started to cry and just looked at me. I looked away because I knew that if I didn't look away I would've started to cry. Before I looked back I squeeze my eyes shut. Aaron in the rest of the boys walked in.

"You're leaving?" I looked towards the door and my heart broke.