With you I feel loved

Chapter 12

Beau's POV

Yesterday I arrived in LA. I'm currently in Lina's appartment waiting for her. After she comes home from work we are going to talk about the situation. I'm kinda nervous because I don't want her to feel rejected since I'm staying with jen.

Maybe she has some expectations now because of me being here with her. The last thing I want is breaking up with Jennifer. I love her so damn much!

*sound of the door opening and closing*

"Hey there!" Lina walks up to me in the kitchen and makes some coffee for us.
"How was your day?" I ask her. This feels weird.. I'm in her house, waiting for her o come home, asking her how her day was..
Just now I realize how much I really care about Jennifer. I already loved her to pieces of course, but now I really see how much I need her in my life. I couldn't trade her for any other woman out there. Not even for hundred thousand billions of dollars!

Lina took place in the seat opposite of me and we both have some coffee now.
"Sooo... Beau, I'm really really glad you came. Its not nothing.. I understand its a difficult situation."

"Yeah tell me about it.." I laugh out of nerves and she does the same. "Okay so I'm wondering.. Do you want to be a part of the twins lives?"
"Of course! I would love to! Its just. Jen doesn't know I gave you my sperm.. So its ridiculously complicated at the moment.."

"I understand... But why didn't you want to take part of the baby's life if it would have been just 1 baby?" That's what's been bothering me.

"I wanted, I really wanted to.. But the agreement was that I wouldn't ask you about the kid and you wouldn't ask me any money. I thought that was the easiest and safest agreement for jen never to find out. But as soon as you told me you were pregnant I felt like a piece of me was dying. My heart. I felt like I had to be there for the kid and it felt so weird that my kid was going to grow up somewhere else without me knowing anything about him or her."

"Ahh now I understand.. I was so bothered by it.. I thought you didn't care about the kid until it turned out they would become twins.."

"No that's not it. I was scared to ask you if I could be a part of the baby's life because of the agreement. I thought you would become scared and abort the baby because you were scared I would stalk you or something. I was afraid you would go find another donor.."

"I would never do that! I could never abort this baby.. Or babies now. I already love them so much and I can't wait to give birth to them."

"So you would be okay if I am going to take a part of their lives? I will financially supprt you then of course. You expected to have one baby instead of 2 so I know its hard for you now and you're worried about the money. I will help you with it."

"I would love it if you stayed in their lives! The twins need their daddy, a man, around.. Two mommies can be nice, but they need a daddy as well."

"Wait... Two.. mommies?"
"Y-yeah.. I'm a lesbian. I have a girlfriend."
"That's why you wanted a donor?"
"Yeah it is.. I didn't want to tell you before because I thought you would judge me, but now you're staying in their lives I have to tell you."

"Of course I wouldn't judge you!! I'm actually so relieved!! We can tell jen I gave you my sperm to help my lesbian friends! She won't be jealous of you because you are not into guys anyway!!"

"Okayyy... You're welcome! Hahaha!" I'm glad Lina likes the idea and doesn't get mad at me for being rude or something.

"So where's your girlfriend?"
"She's still at work.. She only works 2 days in a week.. And I work 3 days in a week. So we need to work good and hard to receive the money and not get fired."

"Can't you work more often? Maybe they need you on another day too."
"I've already asked that but they don't need anyone.."

"Maybe you can find another job for 2 days and she for 3 days.. So you both work 5 days a week."

"Yeah but when the babies come we both want to be at home and not at work 5 times a week. We can't afford daycare or a babysitter."

"What if you'd come to live close to me and Jennifer in New York?? I can take care of them whenever I can!"

"Would you really want that..?? I mean, its a lot of work you know, 2 screaming babies.. And what if Jennifer will want a baby.. Then you have 3!"

"If jen wants a baby I will have 3 babies anyway.. Only differency is that you girls will live close to me with our twins so that I can really spend time with ALL of my kids. That would be wonderful!!"

"Well... It sounds like a good solution! We will talk about it with Maya when she comes home."

"Okay! When will that be?"
"Another... 3 hours."
"Daaamn...."

I just hope she comes sooner and that she will like the idea. That would be heaven!!!
In the mean time I'm gonna call jennifer and tell her all of this...