With you I feel loved

Chapter 34

DAYS MISSING: 110
Days in Thailand: 62
Weeks until the baby arrives: 19

Jen's POV

When I wake up I feel very dizzy and light in my head.
"How are you feeling?" Harry sits next to me. He has dark circles around his eyes and he has a scratch on his forehead. I hadn't even noticed that earlier.
"You look like crap." I inform him.
"Awww always full of compliments." He sarcastically replies.

"Sorry. Yeah I feel... ehm. Hungry."
"Ohh I think I can do something about that. How about pizza?"
"Is that allowed in the hospital?"
"Don't know, don't care, I just ordered two. It'll be gone before they notice." He grabs the pizza boxes from the chair beside him.

"Got you a Hawaiian because I know you love that."
"Thanks, Harry."
"You're welcome."

"So how are you?" I ask concerned. "Everything okay with you?"
"Not really, the feeling of guilt is enormous and I feel so, so, so stupid. I keep wondering myself how and why did this happen? And if I didn't ask you with us you wouldn't be laying here right now... And-"
"-Harry!" I interrupt him. "Stop. It's not your fault okay? Please. Your pizza becomes cold."

The rest of our pizza's we eat in silence. I nearly finished my last piece and Harry just threw away the box for me as a doctor came walking into the room with the results of the scan.

"Hi miss Lopez. I'm doctor Pondri. First I'd like to ask how you are feeling."
"Hi doctor Pondri, I'm... Worried... I feel light in my head.. Do you have the results?"
"Yes I do. There's good news and there's bad news. Which one would you like to hear first?"

"The good news."
"Okay. The good news is, your baby is still alive. And as far as we could see, it's doing fine."
"Thank God!" I look to Harry. He smiles too. Tears appear in his eyes.

"And what's the bad news?"
"The bad news is.. the baby will have to be born 1 month earlier than expected. Your belly got some damage from inside which makes it dangerous to keep the baby there another 4 and a half months. We have to shorten it to 3 and a half months by doing an operational labor."

I stare to my feet. I'm scared.
"And will the baby be healthy when it's born 1 month too early?" 
"It is risky, but not any riskier than to keep it in your womb to develop there. We will take fully care of the baby in the intensive care as soon as it's born."

"I don't want to offend you in any way, but I prefer to be in New York, my hometown, when my baby will be born. Is that possible?"
Harry looks to me. His eyes widen.

"Ehm. Yeah. I totally understand. It's allowed to fly when pregnant. But it's the best to do it before 28 weeks of pregnancy. Especially in your condition."

"Okay. When am I allowed to leave the hospital here?"
"I'm afraid we have to keep you here at least another week. Just for safety. You're not yet strong enough to leave. Here you can get to rest. Perhaps your friend can book you some plane tickets to go back to New York in about 1 month. You'll be 23 weeks pregnant then and you will be strong enough to fly."

I look to Harry. I hope he agrees. I really need to be home right now. I really, really want to see my mom. My sister. Leah. And of course, Beau. But I'm afraid of seeing him again. I hope Harry lets me go back to NY.

"Okay. Thanks, doc."
"Take care."