With you I feel loved

chapter 14

Beau's POV

Today I'm flying back to New York again. Back to Jennifer. My love. I had an amazing time in LA. I got a good opportunity to get to know Maya and Lina better.

They make such a great couple! They're fun to be around, they're intelligent, cool looking, they are very warm and loving. They're funny. I like them. I couldn't have found better mommies for my children.

Except for Jen tho. She is and stays the number 1 mommy. I know she's not even pregnant, but as soon as I come home, I'll change that.

I really hope she will be pregnant soon and we'll have our baby in less than a year time. I'm so ready for it! And I hope she will take this well...

I mean its not nothing.. That I will have my firstborn(s) with another woman. Or actually 2 other women. And let alone that they're moving to our town AND that I will see these kids and their mommies a lot..

They're gonna be a huge part of our lives from now on. Or at least of my life. I won't ever leave them. I just can't.

"Hey Beau, you got everything packed up, ready to go?" Maya asks. "Yeah, I do. Leggo?"
"Yupp, leggo!" Maya says and she calls Lina to get the car keys.

They're both bringing me to the airport. They're so kind and caring.

In the car we discuss the last things about the future. Like we're scared we forgot something important. But we guess we've sorted everything out. We know all we need to know & we've discussed everything we needed yo discuss.

So its all settled & we're all very excited for what's coming. Lina is 5 months pregnant now so I hope that they will live in NY within 4 months so the twins will be born in NY and I can see them the exact same day.

That would be magical!! But I understand it isn't easy to quit their local jobs and find a house here between now and 4 months..

Anyway, I HAVE to tell Jennifer about them when I get home. I thought it was going to be fun and for weeks, I wanted to tell her so bad! But now the moment of truth really is there I'm frightened. Frightened for what Jen will say, will feel, will think..

I hope she'll take it well and not be angry or something, because in fact I didn't do anything wrong. I didn't have sex with Lina, so you can't call it cheating..

But I did keep it from Jen that I was doing all of this. And 2 babies.. that's not nothing.. I just wish the best...

And I'm also trying to find out what's the best time to tell her. Before or after the sex? If I do it before, she will maybe not want to have sex with me because she will think I want to have sex with her just to make it up to her that I'm having twins with some other woman. But if I'll tell her after the sex she'll maybe think I had sex with her so she would be in a good mood & not get angry with me... It's so hard..

Jen's POV

Today Beau is coming home. I don't know why but somehow I've got this strange feeling in my stomach. Maybe its because I'm going to tell him I'm pregnant & show him the room. Maybe it's because I secretly still don't believe him about not-having an affair.

After all, it is pretty strange... Him meeting another woman there.. Staying there for the entire week!! That's a little weird.. But I am trying to trust him and not think about the affaire thing anymore.

Its almost 2 AM so I should go to the airport now. I'm going upstairs, checking the baby room one more time before I go. Yes. It really is perfect. I'm quickly taking a picture of it with my phone.

I can post that on Facebook and Instagram as soon as Beau knows it. When Beau knows it, the entire world may know it!!

Now it's time to drive to the airport to pick him up. Finally! This has been a looong week..!