With you I feel loved

Chapter 9

Beau's POV

"I hate that I'm lying to jen just so I can spend some time with Lina and discuss about how were going to handle everything."

I take another sip of my beer and Jose does the same. We're sitting at a bar.

"I told her I got promotion and that I'm going to a meeting in LA.. And I feel horrible about it.."

"Well its not your fault.. I mean.. You're doing this for Lina. Its the best thing. And its better if jen doesn't know anything about it. So she wants to have a baby with you right? Then it's the best thing if you start soon so she won't notice that you're starting to smile every time you see a baby, walk past a baby store, or even hear the word 'baby'.. So she thinks you're acting this way just for her and not for Lina and those twins inside her belly.."

"Yeah.. That's the best idea! I should have a baby with Jennifer soon. Man.. I'm going to be the daddy of 3 or maybe even 4 babies if Jen has twins too..."

"Good luck for you bro its the end of a free life!" Jose clearly isn't too enthusiastic about fatherhood. Maybe that's why he doesn't have a girlfriend.

"Thanks Jose.. But I'm ready for it. Seriously I can't wait to cuddle those mini me's!"

"But are you ever going to be able to build a relationship with Lina's twins?"

"I don't know.. At first I thought she would be raising the baby alone.. But now I know there are going to be 2 babies.. I want to be a part of their lives. This is such a special gift. I feel like its a sign that I have to be there for Lina and the babies."

"And one baby is not a sign?"

"Well one baby was planned. I would give her my seed so she could have a baby.. But now there are 2 babies... I feel like I have to be a part of their lives.."

"And what if one of them still dies in the belly? Are you leaving her alone again cuz its 'only' one baby??"

"No! Of course not! What's your problem??"

"My problem is.. That you're obviously not speaking the truth to yourself, to Lina, AND to Jennifer. Ask yourself one more time: do you want to be a part of Lina's twins lives without Jennifer's notice and do you also really want a baby with Jennifer or is that just so she won't notice that you're thinking about those twins all the time?"

"I... I- of course I want a baby with Jennifer. I love her! And I don't love Lina. Of course I care about her since she will be the mother of my babies.. But that's all."

"You sure?"

"Damn right I am! Jennifer is my entire world.. My everything! She would be the last word I said if I ever met my last breath."

"Okay okay I believe you. You truly love that girl and you'd go through fire for her. That's good man I'm happy for you. I hope you'll find happiness with jen and the baby(s) and with Lina's babies."

"Thanks dude. I will. I'm sure of it."

Jen's POV

I'm walking in Walmart. Secretly already looking for baby strollers. I know, I'm not even pregnant yet... But the idea of having a baby with Beau sounds so wonderful to me. I just can't wait to make preparations for the baby and our little family.

I'm imagining Beau with our child. He already was sweet to me. Let alone how sweet he will be with our child.

I wouldn't want to leave Beau for no gold on earth. Funny thing is that Harry hasn't came into my thoughts ever since Beau brought up the baby-plan.

Finally! Harry has left my mind! Harry made room for the baby. Beau's and mine. Our little treasure.