With you I feel loved

Chapter 35

DAYS MISSING: 110
Days in Thailand: 62
Weeks until the baby arrives: 19 (-4 as you now know) so from now on it's 15 weeks

Jen's POV

The doctor left the room. I look up to Harry.
"Please, Harry?"
He smiles at me. I see he hesitates but yet he tries to hide it.
"Anything that's the best for you and the baby, Jen."

He grabs my hand.
"We need to talk." I say.
"Later. First take some rest." He's trying to avoid this conversation cuz he's scared of the truth.
"I can't rest until we talked." I won't give up so easily.

"Okay." He takes a seat next to my bed and looks at me. Prepared to listen.
"Harry, when I first met you, I found you really creepy, but mysterious and in a handsome, sexy way. When you abducted me to that castle of yours I got very scared at first. I wasn't prepared to trust you or anything. As time passed, I began to like you. I even caught myself of loving you in certain situations...."

"Jen...-"
"-Wait. Let me finish please. I began to understand you and understood why you did what you did. I saw the man behind the mask. It made me confused, but it was such an indescribable feeling. It felt like I could finally breath again, being in that castle with you. And the last 3 months in Thailand."

"You made me feel special again. I felt such intimacy with you which I hadn't felt with Beau in a long time. Even tho it seemed like I did, being with you made me realize I only fooled myself. And him."

"Anyway, I do still carry his child. And it doesn't feel fair to take his right away of seeing his child. So please, as soon as I get to New York. Can I call him? I will figure out a story but I will leave you out of it. I will tell him I don't have the same feelings for him anymore and I will give birth to our child. We will arrange the shared custody and I will leave him. But let me at least talk to him."

"You are right. I completely agree with you. But I'm afraid. Afraid that he will talk you out of it. Afraid that you can't resist him and you will want to be with him again. Do you have any idea how much of a risk it feels to me to let you talk to Beau?"

"You are afraid of losing me."
"I am."

"But right now, Harry, right now you only have my because you abducted me and you bribed me with your money. You took me here because you know I love traveling and you know Beau didn't let me go anywhere yet. That's why you are afraid. You are afraid that you can only have me if you keep any other man out of my life. But that's not true Harry. I've got to know you so well the past few months. I started to have feelings for you. Special feelings. Feelings that no one, not even Beau, can take away from me."

"But what if-"
"Harry! No what-if's anymore, please. The only "if" there is right now, is the 'If you don't let me talk to Beau I will never be able to love you.'"

That made it pretty clear. Harry leaves the room and just before he disappears around the corner I see him reaching out to his phone. Finally. I convinced him. I'm going home. I'm going to see Beau.

Then I fall into a deep, satisfied sleep.