^^^my artwork. #Lit !
(And that eyeliner though. The best I've ever done.....on a drawing...)
I AM SO FUCKING MAD
😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡SO YESTERDAY (WEDNESDAY) AFTER MY FUCKING HELL HOLE OF A SCHOOL THERE WAS THIS CLUB MEETING I HAD TO GO TO AFTERWARDS, BUT SINCE I CATCH THE PUBLIC MOTHERFUCKING BUS, THE ONLY WAY I COULD GO WAS IF I COULD GET A RIDE FROM MY FRIEND!!
SO WHEN I ASKED HER, SHE SAID YEA! THEN I ASKED HER IF SHE WAS SURE, AND IF SHE COULDNT GIVE ME A RIDE THEN I COULDNT GO!! SHE STILL SAID YEA!!
SO AFTER THE CLUB HER DAD AND BROTHER--fucking talks behind your back. KISS MY ASS SINCE UR IN THE POSITION TO!!
ANYWAYS, HER BROTHER AND MOTHERFUCKING DAD WERE TEXTING HER AND CALLING HER 5000000000KAJILLION TIMES IN 4 MINUTES OK! SOME KINDA RECORD!! SO WE SEE HER CAR AND WALK UP TO IT. AS WERE WALKING I SAY "ARE YOU SURE I CAN GET A RIDE!?" *long sigh*
...she says "I thought your mom was picking you up" 😑 the only reason I was able to go to the club meeting was because you said I can get a FÛCKING ride after. So I said
"NOO! MY MOMS AT WORK!! YOU SAID I CAN GET A RIDE!! WTFFFF!!" So we make it to her car and she asks and her fuckt--her dad and he says
"NO MONIQUE IM RUNNING OUT OF GAS AND I HAVE TO PICK YOUR MOM UP FROM WORK RIGHT NOW! NO!"
"But--"
"I SAID NO MONIQUE! !"
Motherfucker.
Then she turns to me and I'm just like: "😑+😡" then she says "tell your mom to pick you up!"
AND IM LIKE "I CANT MY MOM GETS OFF OF WERK AT 5:30!!! THATS IN 3 MOTHERFUCKING HOURS!! I CANT!!"
SO HER DADS LIKE "COME ON MONIQUE!" AND IM LIKE:
"STFU I NEED A RIDE FROM U!! I THOUGHT U SAID I COULD!!" Then she's like
"I gotta go. But I'll text your mom--or I'll ask so-and-so if she can give you a ride." Then she leaves me.
She texts & calls me but I ignore it. Too pissed tf off man!! IM IN THE DESERT BURNIN!! So I watch them drive off!!!
Motherfuckers.
So I'm panicking AND STRESSING and I call my dad, I'm yelling at him, he's trying to calm me down..he tells me the nearest bus comes in 17 minutes....but daaad...
"I'm not going to make it!!!!"
And he's like
"GET TO WALKING FAST OMG!" He's freaking out, I'm frraking out. Dis ain't gonn werk.
So I'm walking, and kinda crying because I'm hot, frustrated, angry, WANTING TO JUMP OFF MY SCHOOLS CLIFF (literally..our school sits on a hill) AND WANTING TO KILL MYSELF CUZ I HATE THAT SCHOOL!!
So yea, I'm walking & tearing up, then after all that shit walking, I'm at the cross walk. You'll never believe what happened. What ffucking happened
5 minutes after pressing that damn button for that cross walk, I see my bus.
I'm praying the light will turn red and it'll stop, but it doesn't. Fuck. So I miss my bus.
My chance to go home and hang myself.
Fuck.
So then I literally give up right there. I call my dad to make sure that was the bus I missed, and it was.
So my dad's like
"I'll call you back." I hang up so angry and I walk to back of the alley at the 7/11 and cry. I sit in that dark hot corner and cry my eyeballs out. And it takes a lot for me to cry. I rarely cry. But at that moment I was crying my eyes out. Crying so hard. Shaking, hyperventilating, snot here and there--I'm not even kidding or over reacting.
Not. Even.
I start imagining that I'm Carrie and right when my friends dad starts driving I either explode it or make it run out of gas so they get stuck and I have a way home. Then I start (which I regret) calling my friends dad mean names😢.
So as I'm ugly crying these 2 boys walk past but they ignore me 😭😭 then my dad calls and says he has my uncle on his way.
So my Uncle shows up and he takes me home. So in order to go inside me FÛCKING complex/condos you need a gate card. But ohhh wait! I have no card.
To get. Through. The. Gate.
So my uncle sees this guy "come through" then he's like "hey can you let my niece in!?" Then the guy that came through said "RYAN!!"
Then oh my honey sickles. Fuck my mind!! Shiit!! Ryan comes and let me in.
He holds the gate door open for me too...he's so fucking gorgeous OMG. Fuuck. He made my day. And he lives where I live. Shit. He's soooooooo cute!!!! OMG!!! 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 but I bet he's taken so..😞😞😞 #BUMMER .
Lol. Now I'm in the bathroom getting ready to take a shower then eat, read on watty, nap, then homework.
