^^^literally my friend right now. That 'e'
So hey guys.
I'm at this Key Club RTC thingy event..and I don't see my school. I thought they were going to meet up at some dirt field at the school or whatever......
But no. Because I don't fracking see them. Anywhere.
And we have his uniform thingy for the Key Club and I'm not even wearing mine because I didn't go to the meeting to get it....because it had already started. And I would've been too late. Boo.
There's so many people yelling cheers/chants everywhere--so many
social-ness it's scary and causing more anxiety for me.
This is exactly why I do not join clubs or show up at meetings..or school events or any thing that has to deal with talking to people--being social.
I can't. It gives me so much anxiety because I'm not a social person--I'm very very awkward and tend to make my life harder than it is...it just doesn't work.
I think I see my school now.
Why did I even show up to this thing??
Oh yea.
Cuz I payed $30 for this thing.
Probably $35.
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Update!! And I keep getting lost & confused. So confused.
When it comes to the Key Club I feel so dumb..because of confusion. And I'm barely ever confused. Fml.
And I feel like I keep annoying the members & staff with my questions.
I feel like I disappointed my fellow Key Clubber members for not wearing the uniform. I disappointed them and made them look embarrassing!!
I was--was the only one not wearing the dress code or whatever. Out of everyone!!
I feel so so so so bad.
I'm sorry Key Club!!
I'm so fracking new to this!!
I'll be better prepared next year. I promise.
I feel so sad, confused, sleepy, angered, depressed, panicky, disappointed, and dumb rn.
I just want to go home.
But the lunch was the ultimate shit.
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Last update--very short, but, fuuuuckk!! Who ever would have thought!?!
Asians can get it!!
I hope I don't sound..racist?? Lol??? But I never thought how people danced, but these Asians at RTC rn are killing the floor!! SHIIIT! YAAAS!!!
I'm sthupid .
