So my cousins staying with me!!
Monday-Tuesday every week.
YAAAY! You might be thinking.
Fuck no. I'd rather shoot my fucking brains out. Have that shit splattered everywhere.
My fucking cousins. Fuck no!!! NOOOO!!!!! The one who thinks Dylan is hers, NOOOOOOOO!!!!! I can't!!!!!!!!!!
This is really bad because I'm the type of person that likes to be alone, and isolate there self. I'm literally crying. I'm crying. This is hell. First hell (school), then hell (family). Fuck!!!! I'm done. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done. Someone put me out of my fucking misery.
I'm fucked.
How will I concentrate!!! I have piles of homework, lots of studying, how will I go to bed!?! THEY ARE LOUD!!!!
I'm fûcked. We don't even have room to share my one bed. Haha! No! All 6 of us will not squish on that small mattress! No sir!!!
You guys don't understand. You really don't. I'm afraid it's not really them (like 85%), but it's me. The type of person I am.
I do not like having company.
I do not like spending nights at a family members house. No. No sir.
I do not like having cousins spending the night at my place--fuck that.
I am just...no. No. No. Nuh-uh.
My mom tries to throw me sleepovers--fuck no. I'd rather be casted to some fucking pole and drowned in a lake.
Another thing about me, I don't know why but I do not like the idea of mixing my cousins and friends together. I shall never have a sleepover with both of my friends and cousins..together. Fuck that, motherfucker.
Am I the only one??
Yes??
That's why I ignore my mom when she brings up the idea of sleepover and party.
For my 14th birthday she tried to throw me a house party. Haha! Mom! Funny! 1, we live in a tiny apartment. Barely any space. You don't allow shoes on the carpet, that won't work. 2, we live over some elderly couple. You think they'd appreciate the noise that's bound to come??? 3, we have no cable, no wifi, we live in a strict apartment complex. 4, we have bugs. 5, I have no friends. And I am not--I repeat, not, having a party or sleepover with just my cousins. Fuck no. There's bound to be drama. With or without my friends. Fuck that.
{my dad always calls me or talk to me when I'm in the worst moods I swear. And I never swear (😂😂😂😂😂) haha. Irl guys, irl.}
Anyfuckingshootmenow, I know I seem like a heartless, cold, mean, bitchy, rude, unloving, I can go on... person, but.....
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.........yeaaaaa I think I am.
Fuck my life guys!
Oh! And remember! Someone put me out of my misery. You will make my fucking life.
No surprise if I'm going to hell.
;)
