LOTR X Reader - The Lost Lothlorien Princess

Chapter 20 ~ Melancholy

When my eyes open I am laying softy in a field of grass. I look around to see the familiar surroundings of my sanctuary back home and my eyes widen. I quickly jump to my feet and looking down at my body see that I am wearing a soft white elven dress and I tilt my head in confusion. "What's going on?" I say as I once again look around me. 

"Hiril vuin," I hear a familiar voice say and I turn to see Haldir standing a few feet away from me a loving smile on his face. 

"Haldir?" I say half believing as he gives me a polite nod. 

"You know it is rude to stare." I hear another voice say and I turn to see the familiar blue eyes of Boromir and my heart clenches.

"Am I- Am I dead?" I ask and Haldir raises an eyebrow as he says, "That depends do you want to be?" 

I shake my head as I say, "Well no, not really." 

The two men smile brightly as Boromir says, "Then you have your answer." I smile as I look at them. 

Suddenly my happiness fades as I say, "I'm sorry," Their smiles fade as the tilt their heads giving me a why look. "It's my fault you two are dead, I knew you were going to die but I couldn't save you." Boromir smiles softly as he reaches forward and gently wraps his arms around me. Tears fill my eyes as I cling to him. 

"My dearest ______, there was nothing you could have done." Boromir says and I open my mouth to argue but Haldir cuts me off as he says, "He's right my lady, even if you would have told us, our ends were inevitable. Everybody dies. You mustn't blame yourself." 

The tears start to pour as I clench tighter to my friend, "But," 

"No buts, I am telling you not to blame yourself for my death." Boromir says and Haldir chimes in, "As am I," I pull away from Boromir and turning to Haldir say, "I can never be sorry enough."

He reaches out his hands to me and when I take them he pulls me in so he can place a gentle kiss on my forehead as he says, "You need not be sorry. Heaven is a beautiful place and all my kin are here. I am truly happy." 

I smile softly as Boromir chimes in, "As are mine, even my father is here with me; and one day I will be reunited with the rest of my friends and my brother Faramir. All we wish now is for you to be happy." 

I smile softly and looking around us again say, "Why is my heaven my sanctuary?"

Boromir smiles as he says, "It is the place you were truly the happiest." 

I raise an eyebrow as I say, "Um then someone fucked up because my home back on Earth sucked." 

"Perhaps deep down in your heart you long to make amends with the people you left behind?" 

I let out a heavy sigh as I say, "But you don't know what they said about me, how can I forgive them?" 

Haldir smiles and gently runs his fingers through my hair as he says, "What was said might have been something they regret? When people are angry and stressed out they say things they don't mean."

I sigh as I say, "Then what do I do?" 

"That my dear friend is up to you." Boromir says as he places his hand on my shoulder. They start to fade from before me and I reach out to try and grasp them and my hand goes through them making me panic. "Wait don't go! I'm not ready to say goodbye!" But with a bright smile they were gone. Tears fill my eyes and I fall to the grassy ground my face in my hands.