Bad Dreams //mgc

67.

*Cara's POV*

After our deep solemn conversation earlier, we needed a mood change. Fate is in my favor as Ashton's phone rings. His face lights up and he steps outside to take it. When he comes back in, he's beaming with excitement.

"That was Modest. They booked a studio in DC for next Monday, as long as the trial is over by then, to record the EP!"

"NO WAY! Oh my god you guys! This is really happening!!!' I yell out! It's so exciting!

"You know," Alex says, "I've heard talk about the band, but are you really any good?" she teases. Luke gets a cocky grin and all four jump up. "Follow us and prepare to be blown away!" he laughs as we all head out to the shed. It has officially become their practice studio, so all their equipment and instruments are here.

"Have you guys figured out what songs you're going to record? I ask.

"We have a new one, as well as some you haven't heard yet," Calum answers as they tune their guitars. "We're doing four songs. Heartache On The Big Screen is one of them. She Looks So Perfect is the new one, and
The Only Reason and Disconnected are the other two." Once they were ready, they started with She Looks So Perfect, followed by Heartache On The Big Screen. "Next is The Only Reason, written by Mikey," Luke said with a wink.

Oh oh,
Oh oh,
Oh oh,
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

When Michael starts his solo, he is looking in my eyes:

Don't talk, let me think it over
How we gonna fix this?
How we gonna undo all the pain?
Tell me, is it even worth it?
Looking through a straight line
Taking back the time we can't replace

I lost track of everything until Luke starts and I'm brought back to the song.

All the crossed wires
Just making us tired
Is it too late to bring us back to life?

When I close my eyes and try to sleep
I fall apart, I'm fighting hard to breathe
You're the reason, the only reason
Even though my dizzy head is numb,
I swear my heart is never giving up
You're the reason, the only reason

I feel you burning under my skin
I swear I see you shining
Brighter than the flame inside your eyes

Bitter words spoken,
Everything broken
It's never too late to bring us back to life

When I close my eyes and try to sleep
I fall apart, I'm fighting hard to breathe
You're the reason, the only reason
Even though my dizzy head is numb,
I swear my heart is never giving up
You're the reason, the only reason

Oh, oh, oh, only reason, the only reason
Oh, oh, oh, only reason, the only reason

Don't talk, let me think it over
How we gonna fix this?
How we gonna undo all the pain?

When I close my eyes and try to sleep
I fall apart, I'm fighting hard to breathe
You're the reason, the only reason
Even though my dizzy head is numb,
I swear my heart is never giving up
You're the reason, the only reason

When I close my eyes and try to sleep
I fall apart, I'm fighting hard to breathe
You're the reason, the only reason
Even though my dizzy head is numb,
I swear my heart is never giving up
You're the reason, the only reason

I'm crying. Again. What else is new? But that song... I know without a doubt that he is sharing the pain of my past. I am not alone. Alex leans over and whispers to me, "He's the best thing that's ever happened to you. Don't let him go!" I won't. Ever.

They finish with a song called Disconnected. They are seriously going to go far.

****
Regan, Ashton, Calum and Luke left after dinner and we had a quiet weekend just the four of us. Monday and Tuesday were normal school and work days, so Alex and Jason did the DC tourist things. Now that Tuesday night has gotten here, its really quiet around the house as we are all dreading the start of the trial tomorrow. No one really says much of anything. We all go to bed early. We need to leave by 7am.

Michael and I are just lying in bed, my head on his chest as usual. He's making random designs with his fingers on my back while I do the same on his chest. He is the first to break our silence.

"Angel, please talk to me." That's all it takes for the tears to start pouring out.

"The only memories I have are from nightmares. Are they even real? Are they memories or just bad dreams? That's what I'm most afraid of."

"Angel, nobody has detailed dreams about being raped if it didn't happen. They scared the hell out of you, and me. You don't wake up from a nightmare shaking and in tears if it wasn't real. You had trouble telling where your 'dream' ended and where the present started. That is not just a bad dream. They'll see that. Everything will be okay, one way or another." We squeezed each other thighter and drifted off to sleep.

a/n everything lately for Cara is one an emotional roller coaster. That's what stress does.