True Love - Jadesy (Editing)

i love you. im sorry

-JesysP.O.V

Id run home from the studio and I was now sitting in the en suit, with a razor in my hand. I dragged it across my skin and sighed as I felt pain shoot up through my arm. I made a 4 cuts before I started panicking about wether Jade would see them or not but then I remember. She didn't care. Perrie was on her side and Leigh probably would be to. Everyone I was close to probably hates me now. They wouldn't care if I killed myself but I didn't want to do that. I slid the blade across my wrist 5 more times so I had 9 new ones now. I quickly washed away blood and hid my razor again. I pulled my sleeves back down and went to sit on the sofa.

I lay down and face the back of the sofa. I closed my eyes. Tears began to fall and I couldn't work out wether it was from the pain of my arm or what happened at the studio. I heard the door unlock and close again.

"Jesy its me" I heard Jades voice and I was suddenly relaxed but I was still angry at her. I didn't move but she lifted up my head and sat down then put my head on her lap. I guess she thought I was sleeping. She ran her hand through my hair and kissed my cheek. I felt her wet eyelashes on my skin and then I felt tears dripping onto my face quickly followed by her hand wiping them off.

"Jesy are you awake?" she whispered softly.

"Yes" I replied flatly and sat up.

"Jesy look-"

"I know Jade, youre sorry and you still love me. Well guess what, im struggling to believe that"

"But I am sorry! I don't care how cheesy this sounds but youre my everything Jesy. I would die for you. I didn't know what to say to Harry because he had this look on that's hard to say no to and I didn't expect you to be so hurt because you shouldve known I wouldnt say yes!"

"If you loved me, you would have said no, no matter what face he had on!"

"For fuck sake Jesy!"

Jade stood up and walked into the bedroom and came back a couple of minutes later with a box. She handed it to me.

"Maybe this will show you how much I fucking love you Jesy" she wiped away tears. I opened the

box and there a necklace inside. I took it out of the box. It was a golden heart shaped locket. Inside it was a photo of me with her kissing my cheek. I smiled and looked at her.

"I love you. Im sorry" she said to me. I looked at the locket then back at her. "If you don't like it then I will take it back, I was going to give it to you next week because that will be a month we've been together but I thought that this was the only way I could show you how much you mean to me so youre getting it now"

"Jade-"

"its fine, you don't need to say anything. Just remember that I still love you, even if you don't love me to" and before I could say anything she disappeared into the bedroom. Wow. Maybe I was wrong. I jumped to conclusions. I didn't know what to say. This was so sweet and she thinks I hate her. I was a bitch to her. I walked to the bedroom and found her lying on the bed, with her back facing the door. I heard soft wimpers coming from her and it broke my heart. Again. I had done that to her. This was our first proper argument when it didn't need to be. I should've let her speak.

"Jade?..." I whispered quietly and climbed onto bed and wrapped my arms around her so I was spooning her.

"Im sorry Jesy" she whispered and a couple of tears rolled down my cheeks.

"Jade stop apologising, its my fault, IM sorry"

She turned around so she was facing me and smiled.

"Do you like my present?" she laughed softly.

"More than anything in the world babe" I pecked her lips. "Still up for a Jacuzzi bath tonight?"

"of course but lets not let anyone make us fall out with each other ever again. Its horrible knowing you hated me"

"I never hated you! I just got annoyed and judged what I didn't understand"

"good! Perrie and Leigh told Harry and Zayn about us and i guess they understand" she smiled and lent in for a kiss. "Whats the time?"

"about half 4"

"too early for a bath?"

"its never to early for a bath! lets just tell Perrie and Leigh Anne that we made up" I giggled pulling my phone out and sending a quick text. "and I still have my surprise for you!" I laughed and stood up. I held my hand out to her and she entwined our fingers together. I pulled her into the bathroom and she started to run the bath. She pulled me close and unbuttoned my onesie, kissing her way down my body. I stepped out of it and pulled off her clothes aswell.

-JadesP.O.V

We both stood there in our underwear, I looked over her toned body until my eyes clocked the deep red marks on her wrist. I automatically knew why she had done that. She had done that because of me. I turned off the taps because the bath was away to over flow and looked back at her arm. She quickly tried to cross her arms but I took her arm in my hand and pulled it up to my lips. I kissed over the fresh cuts she had made. I whispered something I liked about her for each one.

"Beautiful, amazing, talented, caring, gives amazing kisses, gives amazing hugs, perfect, believes in everyone, mine" I lifted my head and looked her in the eye. She gave me a hug and I removed her underwear and she got in the bath, gasping and wincing as her arm entered the water. I removed my underwear and joined her. We sat in the same position we had last night.

"I think we should tell everyone we are together now, don't you think? Lets speak to Anneka and do a twitcam or something yeah?" she breathed in my ear.

"Yes! then I can kiss you in public without getting into trouble!" I laughed.

"And no more boys can come between us"

"I promise I will never let that happen again"

"good because I love you Jade Amelia Thirlwall"

"and I love you Jessica Louise Nelson"

***

"Do you want to know what your surprise is now?" Jesy asked me after we had finished the chinese takeaway we had ordered. I was in my oversized top and so was Jesy.

"Hit me with it" i smiled at her. She grinned and ran through to bedroom. I heard her raking for something. She came back a couple of minutes later with an envelope and she handed it to me.

"Open it" she squealed, sounding like an excited 5 year old. I tore open the envelope and took out what was inside it. It was two plane tickets.

"Aw Jesy!!" I giggled and pecked her lips.

"We are going to LANZAROTE! I booked it the other day and the tickets came yesterday. I have the tickets for coming home through there!" she pointed to the bedroom. "We are leaving in 4 weeks and we are there for 2 weeks in a private Villa! Are you excited? because I am!" she bounced up and down in her seat.

"Of course I am Jesy! Thank you so much!" I lent forward and kissed her. I lay the tickets on the table. She stopped kissing me for a second and stood up. She picked me up and kissed me. I locked my legs around her waist and her my arms around her neck and she carried me through to the bedroom.