True Love - Jadesy (Editing)

It all comes out

-JesysP.O.V

I looked over at Jade and saw the worried expression on her face. I frowned a bit and nodded while sitting up a bit, "What babe?"

She took a while to think about it, "Actually it doesn't matter," she began to get off the bed but I grabbed her wrist to pull her back.

"Tell me," I sighed.

"No Jesy, it doesn't matter. Honestly," She pushed me off and then walked out. I frowned, knowing she was keeping something from me. I got up and got into pyjama bottoms and a vest top and went out onto the balcony to find her on the swinging seat. She had her knees tucked up to her chest and was resting her forehead on them.

"Jade?" I sat next to her and put my arm over her, "What's up babe?"

"I can't tell you," she sighed and I frowned, feeling a bit hurt.

"Why not? Jade what's happened?"

She stayed silent for ages and then took a deep breath and looked at me, "I'm so sorry Jesy, I really am..." She welled up, "and I didn't mean for it to happen but it just did. You have to believe that I really didn't mean for it to happen and I regret it so much," She wiped her eyes and didn't say anything else. I think I knew what she was talking and I felt my heart sinking but I needed to hear her say it. I removed my arm from her.

"Didn't mean for what to happen? Regret what?" I stood up and she looked up at me.

"I-I kissed Perrie. Jesy I'm so sorry," She started crying harder. It felt like my heart had shattered into a million pieces and I felt a physical pain in my stomach and I knew it wasn't the baby. I knew it was coming but I didn't think it would hurt this much. I started crying and backed away from her. She stood up and held her hand out for me, "Jesy please," She wiped her eyes with one hand but I just shook my head. I opened my mouth to speak but I couldn't get the words out.

I ran inside and into the bedroom. I slammed the door shut and sat against it, putting my head in my hands as I slid down the door. I couldn't stop crying. I was so shocked that she would do that to me, I genuinely thought she loved me and would never do anything like that to me. I could hear her knocking on the door, "Jess? Jesy, baby, let me in," I could tell she was still crying. I reached up and locked the door.

"Go be with Perrie," I whimpered. I couldn't get the image of them kissing out of my head. I knew Perrie liked Jade, she had for ages, I just never thought that she would actually do anything.

"I don't want to be with Perrie. I want to be with you," She was crying harder now. I didn't answer and just shook my head even though I knew she couldn't see me. I crawled into the en suit and started to rake for my razors. I could hear Jade apologising constantly but I blocked it out my head. I eventually found them and broke away the plastic until I was left with just the small blades. I stared at the blades in my hand. Did I really want to do this? I didn't want to show Jade how much she had hurt me so I chucked them in the toilet and flushed so I knew I could never get them back. 

I then crawled onto the bed. Jade was still apologising. I had stopped crying while I was in the en suit but I just started crying. I made myself block out Jade's voice and I curled up. I hugged the pillow and cried into it. I felt numb. I couldn't get rid of the pain in my heart, I just couldn't. Knowing she had done that made me reconsider everything. I couldn't stop crying and eventually I just cried myself to sleep.

My dreams were full of darkness and heartbreak. 

The room was pitch black but I could still tell it was Jamie's room. I tried to move my arms but I couldn't. It was like they were tied to the wall. I tried to walk but I couldn't. I couldn't move anything apart from my eyes and mouth. I began to feel uncomfortable. I'd always hated being trapped in one position. The centre of the room lit up a bit and there stood Jade. I felt some sort of relief.