True Love - Jadesy (Editing)

I'm getting you back.

-JesysP.O.V

"Jesy look at me," Perrie still had the same tone of desperation in her voice but I just shook my head. She walked over and knelt in front of me but I closed my eyes, "Fine. If you're not gonna listen to me, at least hear me out."

"Gonna tell me why you kissed my fiancé?" I turned over so my back was to her.

"Yeah, I am. I'm so sorry Jesy. Don't be annoyed at Jade because it was me who kissed her-"

"But she kissed back," I sat up, "She didn't have to do that. She choose to do it."

"I think she was just shocked that I had kissed her. Look, I was just desperate for someone to love me. And at the time, it felt like it was okay to do. Look, I'm really sorry. I was round there before I came here and she's falling apart."

"And I'm not?! She cheated on me. She broke my heart and the most she can do is say sorry?! She hasn't called, text, or anything!"

"She said to me that she wanted to give you space," Perrie reached forward to put her hand on my shoulder but I shook her off.

"If she really loved me, she would of at least sent me a text asking where I am," I sighed and rubbed my face. I could feel myself getting really upset and stressed and Leigh obviously saw this because she grabbed Perrie's arm and pulled her up.

"I think you should leave," She gently pulled Perrie away and she just seemed to go along with it. I soon heard the door close and then lay back down and closed my eyes again and started crying. Leigh came through and started to stroke my hair, "You should sleep. The spare room isn't made up and is full of junk so you could sleep in my room for the night if you want? If you don't mind me joining you?"

"That's fine," I stood up and she helped me up the stairs. I had put pyjamas in my bag so I got changed into them and then I got into Leighs bed and closed my eyes. Leigh sat with me until I fell asleep.

-JadesP.O.V

I was sitting on the sofa in the living room, clutching Jesy's engagement ring tight in my hand. I hadn't left this spot since she had left yesterday. The door wasn't locked but I was in such a daze half the time that anyone could walk in, burgle the place and leave without me knowing. I hadn't even known Perrie had walked in until she waved her hand in front of my face and clicked her fingers.

I wasn't hungry or thirsty. I wasn't tired either. I was just numb. Jesy was my world, and now my world was over. It was like I didn't know how to function without her. I felt like I couldn't even go and boil the kettle without her telling me to be careful not to burn myself. It was a routine and I was used to it so now it all felt weird. Even sitting here was weird because normally Jesy would come along and make sure I was comfy. Not this time. Maybe not ever again.

"Jesy come back. I'm sorry. I won't do it again, I promise. I love you and only you. I made a stupid mistake. Forgive me. I'm sorry," I spoke it aloud. I guess I thought it would make everything better but of course it didn't. She wasn't here to hear me speak.

I was broken out of my train of thought by my phone ringing. I had kept it beside me in case Jesy called - which she hadn't. I answered without looking at who it was first, "Hello?"

I prayed to hear Jesy's voice on the other side of the phone but it wasn't.

"Hey Jade," It was Perrie, "I went over to Leigh Anne's house and Jesy is there. I tried to explain it was my fault but she wouldn't really listen. Maybe you should go and visit  her?"

"I told you. I'm trying to give her space."

"Yeah but it's making her think you don't love her. Jade, I'm trying to help you. I think its for your own good if you go over there."

"But what if it ends in a disaster?"

"Well then you can at least say you tried." 

"Fine then, I guess you're right. Bye Perrie."

"Bye Jade. Oh and by the way...you have very soft lips," I heard her giggle before she hung up. I sighed and threw my phone down. I rubbed my face and then lay on the sofa and tucked my knees up to my chest again.

I tried to sleep but it got to around 3 o'clock in the morning and I decided just to get up. I went into Jamie's room and did the extra coating on the walls. I could see my hair marks dried on the paint from where Perrie had been holding me against the wall. I then painted all the furniture the same baby pink colour before I decided to stop and then went for a shower.

I felt so disgusted with myself that I scrubbed extra hard all over my body but even when I rinsed and dried myself, I still didn't feel clean.

"Fuck sake Jade," I mumbled to myself, "You're such an idiot."

I then went and got dressed in just leggings and a long top. I dried my hair, forgot about make up and headed to Leigh Anne's house. In my head I rehearsed but I wanted to say for a while before I decided it was pointless since I would probably forget it by the time I was face to face with her again. I began to get a bit excited. I was going to be able to look at the freckles scattered on her nose and cheeks. I would be able to stare into her eyes. I would be able to watch the way her lips moved as she talked. I would be able to take in her beauty.

I had just finished speaking about that when I pulled up at Leigh's house. I took a deep breath before going up and knocking on the door. My legs were shaking and butterflies were dancing in my tummy. It was still only about 9 o'clock but I knew Leigh would be up. Moments later, the door opened. It was Jesy standing there.