Music Saves Lives

Chapter Five

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As I was waiting for Niall to come by my room to pick me up and I decided to call my dad and tell him that everything is fine. The phone rang a couple times until he answered. I sat down on the edge of the bed and smiled when I heard my dad’s voice.

“Hi, sweetheart.” He answered.

“Hi dad, just checking in and letting you know I’m okay.”

“So are you heading off to bed now or…”

“No, Niall and I are going out to eat.”

“Oh. Okay.” He mumbled.

“Dad, what’s wrong?”

He sighed, “(y/n) honey, does Niall know?”

“No, I didn’t tell him.”

“I think you should. He is your boyfriend now and I don’t want you to get too into it before you tell him. It could be a deciding factor in whether or not you guys will still be together. It’s not something you should keep from him.”

A tear slid down my cheek. “Dad, I want to but I’m scared to tell him.”

“You just need to sit him down and tell him. If he breaks up with you then it wasn’t meant to be. You understand that.” He said, sternly.

“Y-yes.” I said, between sobs.

“If you need me, call. I love you.”

“Okay, I love you too. Bye.”

The knock on the door startled me. I wiped my eyes and went to open the door. Niall stood there with his hands in his pockets and a smile on his face.

“Ready to go?”

I turned away from him with my head hung low and I sat back down on the bed. “I need to tell you something.”

“I don’t like the sound of this.” He said, sitting down next to me.

“So, y’know when I said I was a virgin.” He nodded. “I lied, sort of.” I slumped my shoulders and wiped my face again.

“Why? I wouldn’t have bothered me if you told me you weren’t.”

“I was scared you would ask follow up questions.”

“So?”

“I wasn’t the one who decided to do it. I was pressured. The boy I dated in ninth grade didn’t dump me because I didn’t put out, I did. He dumped me because I got pregnant.”

I sat there not saying another word, waiting for him to say something. He just starred at the floor in front of him, with his eyes wide.

“Niall? Please say something.”

“I- you have a kid then?”

“There’s more to the story.” I sighed. “The word about it spread through school really quickly and that’s when I was starting to be called a slut and a whore. When he broke up with me I got scared. I didn’t know what to do. One day school was worse than it usually was. A girl humiliated me in front of my entire school. While I was in gym class she went into the locker room and wrote ‘baby on board’ on my clean white t-shirt in a thick black sharpie. When I changed out of my gym clothes and into my regular clothes I didn’t notice until I walked out into the hall and everyone started laughing and calling me names.” I was sobbing just remembering what a nightmare it was. “I ran out of the school and headed straight home.”

“Why are you telling me this?” Niall asked, choking down tears. His head hung low and his hands gripped each other tight.

“I have too.” I looked at him and his sad eyes connected mine. “I tried to kill myself.” He stood up and paced the room, pulling at his hair.

“Stop.” He cried.

“Niall I have to. Just let me finish.” He leaned on the wall and slid down tucking his knees to his chest. “I lost the baby instead. My father found me after the school called him and told him what happened. He rushed me to the hospital and they pumped my stomach. That’s also when my dad found out that I was pregnant. I shattered his heart. How he still loves me, I have no idea.” I stood up from the bed and kneeled down on the floor between Niall’s legs. “I’m sorry.” I whispered now wiping away his tears and trying to get him to look at me.

“You killed a baby, (y/n) and you lied to me.” He pushed me back and stood up. “I just need some time to think about this all. I’ll see you later.” He walked to the door and left.

I sat back on my heels and sobbed into my hands. My dad was right. I told Niall and he doesn’t want me anymore. My past will always come back to ruin everything I have that is good in my life. My friends don’t even know because I’m afraid even they will leave me.

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-Em xx